For 4 years, I have known a woman in Santa Ana, CA who claims to have AS. I used to refer to her as my best friend but now we refer to each other as "adopted brother & sister" or "brother & sister by endearment".
She is there for me less and less. She runs a nonprofit agency that has ruined my life. Other than me myself, she is THE ONLY person with normal hearing sensitivity and visual acuity who uses tactile American Sign Language for communication. Until tactile signing is popularized among others who have auditory & visual processing deficits, she's the only other one like me.
I have been abandoned so much that I've become very demanding. I pass up anyone & everyone who's married, doesn't know American Sign Language, or knows ASL but reads it visually most or all of the time. I pass up all women who have boyfriends as well.
As I said in another post, the need for human touch never does go away. But I feel like my need for human touch will go unfulfilled forever and I have become suicidal several times over it. My adopted sister in Santa Ana, CA says that if I ever kill myself, she can't live with that and would do the same upon finding out that I already died.
09 Dec 2010, 1:24 pm
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