Progressive abuse

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Later my mother has been emotionally abusing me, if you remember some of my posts. However as I become immune to these insults she uses, she is starting to progress, the abuse has gotten worse, just now grabbing a chair and threatening to smash me with it as I cower in the corner, reminding her I just poured hot coffee for an excuse to get her to stop.

I narrowly escape a blow to the head as the skateboard she thrown at my hit my shoulder, leaving a circular dent in my skin.
I just needed to share this information, luckily there isn't any impulsive options to kill yourself in Australia, otherwise I wouldn't be posting this.

That's horrible.
Move out?

I've shouted out for help numerous times, but until I can get a reliable income (disability pension) which may be in 30 more days if approved, I cannot find help. My relatives are constantly trying to making her become better, so it's not really a viable option as my mother will have close contact with them. I will be able to look for a flatmate when this time comes, however I may fail without the things my relatives do for me (like organise school, get things from the shop) the simple things that I cannot do on my own due to Aspergers.

Despite what my profile says, I'm actually 15 (close to 16) - I simply cannot figure out how to change the date of birth. (changed to 18 because a friend advised me to look in the mature forum for an interesting story).

Ah okay. Being younger causes issues on that.
I'm not sure what to advise/suggest...
Just you have people here to listen if you need to rant.

The problem I know face is trying to remove all the scars I've been getting, it doesn't help when scars repulse you.

Real, physical scars?
If so, you should tell someone - that's assault.

I know, but afraid social workers no longer take into consideration to what I say. My mother has manipulated me so many times the stories I used to tell them were so absurd, eventually got diagnosed with ODD, so apparently I'm a rebell and I'd make anything up to make my mother look bad, she once made me (when I was 11) lie to the police, and tell them on the night my laptop got stolen my mother was at the supermarket from 1AM till 6:30 AM (the supermarket was across the road literally, and doesn't open till 9), the police dismissed the case - never seen the laptop again.

But when it comes to social workers my mother always has the excuse of my past stories that were untrue (because of her manipulation) and blaming her addictions on my behaviour, the social workers do not provide any help because when they leave I get a load of abuse, beatings - they must have evidence like a video or something THEN investigate which would take a reasonable amount of time, whilst that would be happening I doubt I'd life through the emotional and physical trauma.

The abuse has gotten to the point where I'd forget the order of the alphabet because I'm so tense, I just frozen and forgot what came after W, I used to be able to walk down the street, make small talk but my social skills have regressed so much from the insults, I cannot walk in the store without my mother beside me. I'm now dependent on her because of her.

Social workers out of the question.
Relatives out of the question.

If I went to the police or social workers about the scars, my mother would either, blame it on my clumsiness (never fall over anyway), blame it because of something I did and then make up a lie why she hurt me the social workers would then ask me why I did whatever say thinks I did and when I deny they say they "don't blame me" when I am the one with the physical evidence (it's almost like my scar is evidence for the lie she told).

friends?
a safehouse?
NSPCC?
a church group (even if you're not religous)?

There are always options - just have to find a way to get to them.
Even if they seem desperate.

The friends I have would not habour me, my mother will come back and actually WONDER to herself why I left.
A safehouse around here would not be healthy for me, most of the people there would corrupt me.
A church group is also out of the question as they'd try to (probably) rehabitate my mother. She is too far gone. I suggested to the psychologist she had Borderline Personality Disorder originating from the sexual assults as a child.

Regardless of what anyone does, she isn't intelligent enough to receive help, so let's just let her lollow in her misery, my nan will always keep trying, probably end up dying in the end.

Have you tried these options or are you just presuming they'll make things worse?
Surely if things are that bad, ANYTHING is worth a try?

I can bet my life on a russian roulette that literally none of the people that come out of the places around here get a good job or anything. It's a bad statistic to be apart of.

Break the mould.
Life can always improve if you take the first steps.
Sure, you'll get knocked back some, but it only takes one break!

Go to a counsellor, and get yourself into a safe house. When they see the scars they will believe you- abuse scars likely present as a different pattern as self harm scars.

Whether they believe you or not, the important thing is that you get out of this situation.

((((((Hugs)))))))

How?

Regardless of that, what zen_mistress said is 100% right--YOU NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS SITUATION NOW.

Go to a safehouse and contact the police. Have a doctor examine your abuse scars. They will present differently from those inflicted by self-harm.

Please, please, please take steps to get yourself out of this.

Take care, and please update us.

Way uncool! Way out of line on the part of your mother!

I think you have largely read this correctly. Certainly, not the way things should be. But sadly, this kind of passively just going-through-the-motions is the way many officials act.

Now, doctors might be more active people. Some doctors might really be pretty good, others not so good. So, you kind of need a medium way to ask a doctor, and if he or she is not going to be helpful to graciously back off and go to another doctor. And group members here might be able to somewhat strategize about this if you feel that might potentially be helpful.