How to stop it.

Post Reply New Topic

So I've been having a really difficult time......can't seem to get suicide off my mind. So if I end up unable to fight off a suicidal urge on my own what is the best thing to do? I can't very well end it without doing everything I can not to my sister, cousin, brother and some others would be really upset if I did. So what do you do? I mean I feel like I could lose control of these suicidal feelings very easily so I want advice on what to do if that happens.

Talk to someone.
Do something you enjoy to calm you down.
Hopefully they'll go away then.

Or another thing is write down all your bad feelings.

Well, why is it that you want to die? I'm guessing that something in your life is unfulfilled. What is missing? And where should that variable lie at the current moment? If you know the answer to that, you are already far ahead of most people, suicidal or not, young or old. If you know where you want to be, and you know what is holding you back, then that's what needs to be addressed. If you don't know the answer, just ask yourself who you are. If you don't know who you are, ask yourself who you would like to be, and work from that point.

These are all difficult questions, and they take time to answer. Some of these variables are going to be beyond your control, but not all of them are, I'm sure. Keep trying, cause if you do, you will eventually get it right.

The thoughts and pain will get better with time, they may get worse again down the line I don't know. You have to learn a way to let the feelings out. I write my thoughts down on paper and write depressing poems. The worst thing to do is to keep it inside and battle it all alone.
The sad thing is some people just can't handle knowing about your depression and that isolates you more, or it does me. Forgive me for imposing my experiences on you but I think it applies. Some people don't want to talk you out of it they might just call the police and think they are doing the right thing. Maybe they are I just think a person who is thinking about leaving the world by their own hands needs love and understanding and not armed law enforcement taking them to be locked up in a hospital. If you already feel alone and different something like that could push you over the edge you were balancing on to begin with in my view. Not to mention that will be on record for the rest of your life.

So get the feelings and the thoughts out anyway you can but be careful who you trust with your problems and your private thoughts, lets just say I found out the hard way.

There will always be s**t days ahead and by the laws of equilibrium there will be days so amazing you will be glad you didn't do it.

Seek psychic homeostasis and know that you are loved, and not alone!

Peace!

Well i don't really care about it being on record i don't like this society anyways......but I would rather someone call the cops on me then let me end it. I just am hoping it does not come to that....but i don't know if I can prevent it. I just don't even know if I can talk to any of my family about feeling suicidal.

google docs, password protected and will listen to all your dark thoughts with out judgment. If you feel that bad you might try talking to a doctor and it is a lot better then the police!

Well, there's what you think, and there's what you do. They don't have to be the same thing. Since I am on medication now, I haven't had bouts of thinking about suicide for years now. That's rather pleasant.
Nonetheless, I have spent years and years with suicidal ideation battering my brain. What a nuisance. But I'm 58 now, so obviously I have learned how to keep on living. What I have done in the last decade or two was: when a suicidal thought came in, I would keep doing what I was doing and tell myself, Okay, I will do that when my husband is dead and I have a degenerative disease. Then I finish the thought and move on to something else.
Hmm, I am getting closer to the age where all that could happen. Then I will have to come up with some other reason not to do it. When I was younger, I would think about how much it would hurt my mom and that kept me from doing it. That and knowing it was a sin and the first person I would meet after doing it would be God. Not how I wanted to meet Him. If you are not religious, you will have to come up with something else.
Do you know if your depression is situational or brain chemical unbalance? Mine happens to be brain chemistry.
I know people whose kids have committed suicide. They never truly get over it, and the first decade after their kids death is horrendous. Yeah, don't ever do that to anybody.

Tried killing myself two years ago. Didn't have the balls. I know one thing: I died that day.