Maxima wrote:
I feel like I'm sleep-walking through life. I feel attracted to no one, look forward to nothing. I do the same thing everyday, Wake up-Go to school-Come home-Do homework-Go on the computer-Go to sleep. I rarely say more than hello, I feel like I can only feel negative emotions, when things that should make me happy happen I feel like it isn't actually real. Why do I feel like this? Am I the only one?
Your not the only one. Getting off prescription medications ( dozens of which made me depressed, anxious, violent or a nasty combination of the three) helped me. Smoking has also helped. I know the risks it took my great grandmother twenty years to die of emphysema and my grandmother is on a home breathing machine. All I know is when I smoke I feel half human which is more than I've felt in a long long time.
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The only saving grace of the present is that it's too damned stupid to question the past very closely.
H.P. Lovecraft
"Pickman's Model"