I've been loosing it, lately

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I've been losing it, lately. I'm very stressed out about my sister's upcomming Wedding. I know that some of my Ex-Bullies are going to be there. I can't stand the thought of having to face them again, after thirteen years. I know that it's my sister's Wedding and she can invite whoever she wants. I'm also going to have to wear Make-up (I can't stand the feel of that stuff.) for about five hours. This will be the first time that I've worn War Paint, since my Prom Night. I'll have to leave my Dog and my little Routies behind. I'm not keen on that, either.

It's also almost that time of the Month, on top of the upcomming Wedding. If my parents talk to me the wrong way, I end up running over them. I like the concrete sentences and paragraphs of days gone by. I don't like the Teen Talk that the general population has been engaging in, over the past twenty years. I've even told my mom how I feel, but the Teen Talk continues.

I also have a hard time understanding the petty little NT annoyances that she brings up, like a broken Nail, Hair standing up, having to return a "Cute" top, because it doesn't fit, or something else that's of that nature. I've just lost my Life Dream in December and she doesn't hear me going off about it, every second of the day in the way that I hear about, trivial NT Female things.

My Dad thinks I'm Mentally Slow...woops...Handicapped...woops...Challenged. If I'm having a bad day, he likes to give me lectures on how to behave and why I shouldn't be angry at juicy, scrumtious people. I wasn't angry, because a neighbour was sitting in my Lawn Chair. I was angry at all NTs and all the things that have to do with them. I didn't need any ret*d Lectures and I sure as hell don't need to be prepared for when we have company, like a sh***y Arsed ret*d, who goes Aaaaaaaahhhhhh, Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!

Despite the fact that I know that the leaves of an Elephant Ear tree are poisonus, I've broken off a tiny sample and ate it. I know that it could kill me, but I did it, anyways. The World has become an ugly place. I can't handle it, anymore.

You've really got to start moving towards getting your own place.

Cockneyrebel, you have issues. May I suggest therapy, and getting a decent-paying job so you can move out to your own place?

Those chumps wrong you...put on your ugly face and at first opportunity if they approach as them What the F*** to THEY want. Another fav of mine is Look You Piece of Shi*.
Just think it even, but this is your planet and THEY broke the universal rules--so be not afraid.

As for your dad---he sounds alot like the one I needed to say normal things and speak to the issue and not lecure off into the abyss about things that wernt even on the table.

As for your dog and your...what are they called.
Take the dog. You dont have to attend by the way. If your family wants to separate you from your sanity then they are fu**ing up. Produce a doctors note associating your dog to this event.

Doctor: I NEED my dog at the event. Will you write me a prescription for MY DOG at THIS EVENT.

Its what they are for. Doctors and Dogs I mean.

Don't be sad. It will be over soon. You dont have to pretend to be happy. Just be yourself.

Sometimes moving away isn't possible. I have been told just move out. I have Asperger's Syndrome, most of us here have it. Therfore most of us know how overwhelming and stressful it is to get along in this world with family support, let alone without it. Assuming that a NT answer to a problem, will also fit an Aspie, is just ignorance.

Yeah I've had enough money saved to buy a cheap house and stilled did not move out
of my mom's place. Its not easy to even make that first step much less beable to make
it when you do.

Why are you feeling so stressed out? In my opinion, there is nothing to worry about.

Anyway, congratulations to your sister for getting married!

A few of my Ex-Bullies will be at the Wedding.

Try this.

Repete after me.

"What an as*hole!"

*Look away and shake your head*

Just a suggestion, not right for everyone.

I'll be making up plans and filling out the forms for Subsidised Appartments after the Wedding's over with. I can print the forms off the Internet, fill them out and drop them off, at the Seniours Office. The trick is typing out a good Letter of Request. The other trick is tightening my Budget. I need some tips on what I should do, in the meantime. Do I keep to myself and stay in my Bedroom, when I'm home, or do I force myself to socialize with my folks?

I don't think it has to be an either or kinda thing. Spend time with them if you want to and they're not driving you nuts and retreat to your room when they get crazy. In the meantime, keep your eye on that goal. I think I've suggested thatyou move out before and it wasn't feasable or practicable or something. I know it can't be done overnight, but moving toward that goal and seeing it get closer and closer will help you stay sane.

Mr. Mark, you're not an a***hole.

Not me, silly, the ex-bullies! (You did say ex-bullies, right?)

I did mention Ex-Bullies. Thankyou.

Why does your sister want to invite your ex-bullies? That's a shame. Blood is thicker than water, as we say in Sweden. Family first.

Because she doesn't realize that half of the Guys that she's invited bullied me, in High School.