Ashamed of drunken behaviour

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Last night I went round my friend's house with a few others, and it was absolutely fine, until I had way too much cider to drink. Just so you know, I hate alcohol, but I will drink it round my friend's house just to make me feel better for a while.

It got to the point where I kind of lost control of myself, my brain wasn't in sync with my movements, I came out with completely random sentences and just annoyed my friends so much until they attempted to knock me out to get me to shut up. Once the drunk feeling was great, I had to drink more to make it even better .

I just kept on getting up, talking more, stumbling around and falling over everything. They were saying "you're really p*ssing some of us off now, go to sleep."

Since I am a bordeline-insomniac I didn't sleep. I couldn't. At the time I was actually trying to take control of myself and I said "I'm sorry. I really wish I was sober so I wasn't so annoying to all of you. I'm just out of my head".

My memory of it is hazy but I remember one of them strangling me, and I think they said "I could kill you right now by doing this, and no one would stop me". I was then taken into another room and had my arms and legs taped together, so I couldn't get up and annoy them any more.

I don't remember being broken free from the tape, but next I crashed on the sofa on my own in the next room, and took off my shirt for some reason, which I would usually be totally against. I am strictly an all-clothes-on-at-all-times person. I barely slept, and just stared at the ceiling, which was spinning. I'm still a little dizzy now. My curtains are growing.

I don't blame my friends for doing that, even if I've made them sound really evil. I was a real jerk and I feel so bad about it. I should have stopped at about 2 cans, or better yet none at all and should have just had Coke. I'm not going to drink alcohol round there again, that's if I'm allowed round again .

I know what I did is no where near as bad as what some people have done, in the news and whatnot. My brother used to get up to God-knows-what when drinking. But I feel ashamed of myself for getting out of hand like that. Has anyone else had bad experiences linked with alcohol, to share?

why do you want to go back over there when these people tied you up? drunk or not that's no excuse. they could have called you a cab to take you home if you were that intolerable or sent you on your way. alcohol does not mix with some people. i have a friend who loves to drink but no one can stand being around him he gets so obnoxious. alcohol generally makes most people obnoxious and annoying but it effects some people in much worse ways than others. if i were you i'd avoid drinking AND avoid those people. it's better to have no friends than ones that would tie you up no matter what you were doing.

It is all part of growing up, we learn by our mistakes [or should].
If you ever repeat the process please make sure if you are intoxicated that you do not sleep alone. You may vomit and choke in your sleep which can be fatal.

I do hope you're friends are feeling very ashamed of themselves right now.
If I were ever involved in tying someone up or "strangling" them because they were a bit loud and annoying, I'd be bitterly ashamed.

I really don't think you have anything to worry about; of course you feel ashamed, probably because you 'lost control' in front of your peers. But, (I think), everyone feels ashamed of their behaviour if they get so drunk they lose control.
Feeling ashamed and embarassed I think, is also part of the 'hangover' process, give it a week to mull things over and you'll feel better.

Alcohol affects each person in different ways and they react in different ways.
So you got a bit loud and annoying because you drank too much; you didn't do anything to hurt anyone, did you? You're friends lost a bit of sleep, that's about it; so what, they'll live! (Although, I really hope their individual conscious (grammar?) is knocking on their alcohol sodden brains today and keeping them fully alert of their inappropriate behaviour).

But, I suppose you now have a better idea of what your limits are as far as alcohol is concerned, don't get like that again if you don't like the 'shame' you're feeling now; just remember what you feel now and use it as a 'trigger' to know when you need to stop drinking on a night out in the future.

I'd share some of my story's, but I'm too ashamed!

Not having friends is better than having friends who strangle you, jesus.

Like TheWeirdPig said I think they were hazing you. They can't be very good friends if they'd treat you that way. If you really dislike alcohol, do yourself a favor and stay away from it, trust me, your life will be no less without it. It might seem like it is good for getting inhibitions out of the way but that goes both ways and what your friends did to you is an inexcusable act of no inhibitions and disrespect

Thanks peoples. I'm not gonna be drinking alcohol any time soon. Not even when I get to 18. Also my anti-depressant meds are probably pounding my liver anyway .

They have in fact been very good friends over the years, I've known them a very long time, but I don't know what that very unfriendly activity was about.

I just don't know what to do now. I guess there isn't anything to do.

Yes, thats cider for you.

I've heard of and seen much worse. Just treat it as a learning experience and don't get munted again.