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30 Mar 2011, 4:17 am

and I am not sure really what to write. I feel like I am having an epiphany, and the last time I had one this big, and of a similar nature was 1991. Possibly around the same time of the year too... March.... Autumn. I was 13 years old. 20 years ago. I dont know if there is something significant about coming full circle 20 years later, but anyway...

That was a great year though, I did enjoy being 13... but things are a bit more complicated now than they were back then. Anyway, the weird thing about epiphanies is when you realise you see something in a way you never saw before, and it was staring you in the face all along.

Anyway this probably all looks like crazy talk, especially when I am not being more specific. Im not sure why I am writing this thread, I guess I just felt the need to say all this, perhaps just to myself.


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30 Mar 2011, 7:16 am

Do you feel like saying more about the epiphany or it is too personal? (That was not sarcastic by the way! Sorry, I realize it might have looked sarcastic.) I am really interested to know what your epiphany is! Or maybe it's something that can't be put into words.



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30 Mar 2011, 8:10 am

i'd like to know too!



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30 Mar 2011, 8:28 am

Me too! (<--shortest, easiest reply I've ever made in The Haven
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30 Mar 2011, 8:35 am

It's like a teaser for a movie only it's a forum post. ;)



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30 Mar 2011, 9:17 am

yes.



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30 Mar 2011, 2:40 pm

Im sorry guys, I didnt mean to tease anyone, its kind of that I cant really find any words for it all, and also it is too long a story... perhaps if I come up with some proper words I will write something.

anyway, feel free to discuss your own epiphanies in here if you want.


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30 Mar 2011, 4:30 pm

Hopefully it's of a positive nature, anyway! (I couldn't tell, this being the Haven.)

I wonder if people discover the meaning of life all the time but it is too big and sprawling to put into words.



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30 Mar 2011, 8:42 pm

I've had epiphanies over the years, mostly that have dealt with how I interact with the world (in retrospect, my psychologist would call this 'developing coping skills'). Usually it would be some a-ha! moment when I realize why people get so mad at me, or that my comfortable body language (arms crossed) comes off as being aggressive or angry or something.

This year, with my diagnosis of Asperger's, I'm having more of a convergence..a bunch of seemingly separate epiphanies are now linked with my discovery of what exactly is wrong with me. It's a triumphant feeling! With the help of those close to me plus the ever helpful folks in the forums (that's you all), I'm figuring out how to finally be and feel successful.

Celebrate your epiphany, and do tell us about it if you can :)



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31 Mar 2011, 9:16 pm

I had an epiphany about a year and a half ago, in 2009 when everything started to come together for me. I'm not going to repeat the story again until that anniversary date comes around. I'm sure that everybody on WP knows about it by now. It was really something to find the real CockneyRebel buried underneath all that Austin Powers and Punk stuff.


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01 Apr 2011, 2:24 am

purchase wrote:
Hopefully it's of a positive nature, anyway! (I couldn't tell, this being the Haven.)


Yeah I think it probably wasnt. Oddly, I cant even remember what it was any more. I just think I am going through a time of a lot of change and transition and it is all becoming a bit of a blur...

sandrana wrote:
I've had epiphanies over the years, mostly that have dealt with how I interact with the world (in retrospect, my psychologist would call this 'developing coping skills'). Usually it would be some a-ha! moment when I realize why people get so mad at me, or that my comfortable body language (arms crossed) comes off as being aggressive or angry or something.

This year, with my diagnosis of Asperger's, I'm having more of a convergence..a bunch of seemingly separate epiphanies are now linked with my discovery of what exactly is wrong with me. It's a triumphant feeling! With the help of those close to me plus the ever helpful folks in the forums (that's you all), I'm figuring out how to finally be and feel successful.

Celebrate your epiphany, and do tell us about it if you can :)


Yes! Discovering AS is definitely an epiphany-causing event. I found out about it when I was 25, and I realised that there was actually a reason why I had been messing up in social situations, and why I felt really strange and different.


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01 Apr 2011, 2:25 am

CockneyRebel wrote:
I had an epiphany about a year and a half ago, in 2009 when everything started to come together for me. I'm not going to repeat the story again until that anniversary date comes around. I'm sure that everybody on WP knows about it by now. It was really something to find the real CockneyRebel buried underneath all that Austin Powers and Punk stuff.


Yes, it is great to see the real CockneyRebel. And I hope to find my real self one day too.


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02 Apr 2011, 6:40 am

ahh...25 is a great age to discover your latent superpower :) I didn't get diagnosed til 37, but I'm still thrilled, better late than never!

I've been thinking lately of getting a tattoo to commemorate this great revelation and turning point in my life, will post pictures if I go through with it.

I'm really glad that you started this thread, it's very uplifting. what a great way to start my day :)



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02 Apr 2011, 8:33 pm

One of my epiphanies sort of went like, "Well f**k, it's just high school."

I'm graduating next year, and high school has been just awful. But last year I realized that, heck it's just four years. I won't be around these people forever. I need to focus on my grades! My grades used to be really low because I was too depressed too care. I'm still depressed, but I sucked it up and put more effort in my schoolwork. I got way higher grades, and that helped my self-esteem a little and my family stopped giving me so much crap. It was an important realization for me. Not really sure if it's a real epiphany, but the topic is still life-changing thoughts right?



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03 Apr 2011, 2:03 am

sandrana wrote:
ahh...25 is a great age to discover your latent superpower :) I didn't get diagnosed til 37, but I'm still thrilled, better late than never!

I've been thinking lately of getting a tattoo to commemorate this great revelation and turning point in my life, will post pictures if I go through with it.

I'm really glad that you started this thread, it's very uplifting. what a great way to start my day :)


Thanks, and getting a tattoo is a cool idea. If you decide to do it be sure to post about it... : )


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One of my epiphanies sort of went like, "Well f**k, it's just high school."

I'm graduating next year, and high school has been just awful. But last year I realized that, heck it's just four years. I won't be around these people forever. I need to focus on my grades! My grades used to be really low because I was too depressed too care. I'm still depressed, but I sucked it up and put more effort in my schoolwork. I got way higher grades, and that helped my self-esteem a little and my family stopped giving me so much crap. It was an important realization for me. Not really sure if it's a real epiphany, but the topic is still life-changing thoughts right?


Yes, that is exactly what I mean by an epiphany, it is a sort of life-changing realisation. And yes, high school is only a small part of your life, there are plenty of other things to come, and you likely wont see those people again after high school, unless you make an effort to do so.


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03 Apr 2011, 5:44 am

My epiphany was earlier this year.

I realised i have always dated men who look alike not because i like the way they look but because i fell in love with someone who would never love me back because of powers outside my control. Sigh.

I am in a complicated relationship/ single and trying to reconcile relationship currently though.


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