05 Mar 2011, 10:14 pm
I'm having a bad day, everything is bothering me with sensory dysfunction, I'm obsessing about things again, got into a fight with my husband, he called me selfish again (AS stuff), and I'm trying to get off a med that I'm afraid will make me gain weight (it hasn't yet but I've seen it make other people gain weight and I'm worried about it) but it helps so much with my reaction to the sensory issues... 
I also keep thinking about the ex off and on and that's driving me crazy because I was doing so well for a while, and then my husband has been so damn critical about everything in the last few days 
I know this isn't making a lot of sense but I'm about to lose it 
~Kate
06 Mar 2011, 6:35 am
06 Mar 2011, 10:15 am
I've tried a couple of others that are similar and they don't work as well. So I'm trying to use this one sparingly. I wish I could just take it every day without worries about weight gain but I can't. This sucks so bad
~Kate
06 Mar 2011, 8:16 pm
06 Mar 2011, 9:52 pm
Aaaargh...I'm starting to wonder if it's not worth the risk...
~Kate
07 Mar 2011, 12:53 pm
I also keep thinking about the ex off and on and that's driving me crazy because I was doing so well for a while, and then my husband has been so damn critical about everything in the last few days I know this isn't making a lot of sense but I'm about to lose it
~Kate
I'm starting to think that some males have PMS too.
Hopefully he's aware that blaming, shaming and attacking a person instead of trying to reach some common ground is counter-productive, especially if done to a person with multiple health problems.
I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling so bad, but perhaps exercise, like walking with your dog might help you, and might reduce the odds of putting on some weight? It combats all sorts of anxieties as well.
You'll soon be away, and will have time to think things trough and enjoy yourself a little, hopefully. Sending hugs and hoping things get on their track again. *hugs*
07 Mar 2011, 6:02 pm
07 Mar 2011, 6:43 pm
Thanks 
Yeah, I think he's had irritable male syndrome in the last few days...ugh. I did try some exercise today and also got some rest (I was a bit sleep deprived) and it helped some, though reducing the dose on the medication is really rough I really haven't gained weight, but I've only been taking it regularly for about two months, during the coldest weather when my sensory issues were the worst (though they're still pretty bad).
~Kate
08 Mar 2011, 1:39 pm
08 Mar 2011, 9:45 pm
Damn. Damn. Damn. I hate these obsessions. I hate the sensory issues. I hate the memories. I want a f*cking delete key so I don't have to remember any more about "I'm not talking to you any more"....ARGH 
~Kate
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