Maybe lower functioning than I previously thought

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I had a realisation I am more lower functioning and more affected by autism than I previously thought. For instance my self help skills are good to the extent I can look after myself pretty well, but looking after others forget it, I have serious doubts for instance I could ever cope doing things like dating or being in romantic relationship, let alone being married and having childern. I dunno if that is a executive functioning thing or that I have had little experience in social interaction on top of living with my mother and then father all my 23 years.

Plus despite I am good with people, I prefer to keep to myself a lot socially, never had a drive to meet new people on purpose or had a desire for a social life. I dunno if that means I am fairly autistic or just I am extremely introverted.

Also I seemed to be until recently very much in my own little world mentally and did not take much notice of the rest of society and what they did, apart from politics. It could be I am very high functioning but lived a fairly sheltered life with my mother and then father or I am more towards the medium end of the autistic spectrum.

I too enjoy an extensive amount of isolation. Only when I’m alone do I feel completely comfortable with dropping my defenses and just being my weird self. However, I resist the term “anti-social.” Rape, murder, arson, these are anti-social behaviors. They tear at the fabric of society. I am merely unsociable. I’m interested in having a social life, I just find it too much like work. I don’t get the intrinsic, “fun,” payoff that NTs do.

i lived with my parents until i was 23, then i moved in with my girlfriend (now my wife), so i've never really been totally on my own. sometimes i wonder if i am lower functioning than i think, but then again, aspies can have great difficulty with many tasks that are easily accomplished by most neurotypicals. i often have difficulty with financial matters. even though i obsessively save every receipt for every purchase i make, i am inept at managing my funds or balancing a checkbook.