I'm Leaving!! !

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None of you actually give a sh*t so I'm leaving...I thought I would give it a try but whenever i really need help with something no one gives a damn so I don't really see the point in staying on this stupid site. So I hope you all enjoy your lives and forget I was ever here, my future is not promising at all so I dobut any of you will hear from me agian. But I really do hope all of you enjoy your lives I guess its just too late for me so not many people can actually relate...sorry for causing any akward feelings or whatever damage I must have done to be ignored for the most part. But just forget about me and enjoy your lives because they are far more important. I'm just a stupid loser anyways.

oh and sorry if this seems harsh but someone could have at least been blunt and said no one here cares, it would have caused less waste of time on everyones part.

As for everyone who has responded to me and have seen this, thank you for being nice but yeah just admit to yourselves that you would enjoy your life more if you did not have to see my pathetic posts here...........I mean what I have aspergers and cant get a job, I have no reason to exist according to society. I should probably end my life before I do anymore damage, but I just cant't build up the energy to do that.

oh and I am sorry for even posting this, I guess its just a combination of isolation(yes even on the interent) and everythinge else that is taking a hold. So feel free to not care and continue on that is what life is about after all.

umm ok

My threads have hardly gotten responses too. They may not have had anything to say or what advice to give you so they didn't reply. Giving out emotional support is tough for us aspies and especially in The Haven when you are only to give out support, not advice or being critical or giving out criticism. Even logical support isn't always good because sometimes people need emotional support so that could be another reason why you didn't get many responses. So it's not that we don't care.

Maybe the wall is just to high...I mean in the back of my mind I know its not that no one cares. Its just that even when people do care I can't really precieve it so I feel like I am stuck in this hell alone. I mean I don't even know what I should do, dying of too much alcohol seems very appealing a lot of the time.l Though I do not really want to kill myself, I keep convincing myself no to...but to what end. I mean I thought me an my cousin had a plan for getting an apartment together but when I mentioned it when my sister was around she kind of acted like she had no idea what I was talking about....it could have been that her mom was being crazy which she was.. but now I feel like she was just saying that to shut me up for a bit and actually has no plans to even attempt to get an apartment with me...though it is just as likely that she just did not say much in front of her mom because her mom was being rather crazy and still does like the idea. but I dont even know how to ask and make sure...I feel like if I do I will only be lied to even though I really have no reason to think that.

OMG that is so helpful I cant even explain how much of a positive impact that had.

I didn't know what you were talking about, so it seemed appropriate.
If you want to go that's your decision. Or was I supposed to talk you out of it?
Sorry, I'm a rather literal person.

well if your only advice is ...ok....then maybe keep it to yourself. I was hoping for things a bit more helpful not conformation that my existance is truly useless and a burden to anyone who happns to notice said existance.

No burden on me, I don't even know you. Counting on anonymous internet posters to give your life meaning with worn out platitudes seems pointless to me, but have fun.

BTW you can express yourself more freely here should you decide to check it out.

You'll do much better once you realize that the world doesn't revolve around you, I promise It's much easier to be part of something than to be the center of attention.

Well I did post on your other thread.

You may feel like what you say is forgettable and dosen't help others. But my own life has been impacted by views of other people who came to think there isn't any point in what they say so much that I credit the some of the success that I have had to them because if it wasn't for them pointing out there dead ends. I wouldn't have known it was possible to get as far as they did.

The site is gonna feel like that if your not really a frequent poster... I sent you a PM more about it.

I hope that you consider staying. I've felt like leaving many times this year. I feel out of place sometimes, but I keep posting because WP is my only real support network next to my friends right now.

I've posted in your threads on numerous occasions, and I felt that you found my input not very useful, so I gave up.

I think I understand your frustration with this site. In my case, I sometimes hope that in making posts here, I will be able to strike up some kind of meaningful communication with another person and often my expectations exceed what others are willing or able to do.

In my experience, WP tends to be fairly supportive and helpful, but since Aspies tend to have trouble with intimacy and communication, the responces are not always as emotionally fulfilling as we might like.

I often have to remind myself that all I appear to be on this site is an avatar and some rather dry writing. I tend to be analytical and rarely write with a likeable, emotional style that appeals to people. I suspect that the result is that most people do not see the more likeable aspects of my personality.

Maybe this is part of what you are experiencing here. Words on a computer screen are not enough to communicate the complexity of your experience. Your lashing out may upset some people here, but I certainly understand why you might get angry. It is not easy to keep trying to communicate to the world only to find no one seems to hear you. I often feel like I am yelling in an empty room. No matter how much I try to express the pain and frustation I feel in life, all my attempts to do so seem lost in the emptiness around me.

It sounds to me like you feel you are not being heard. You are being heard, but there is only so much that an internet forum can do to help. You also need to be heard by the people in your life. How you accomplish this, I can't really say. Something that has helped me in the past is when I am anxious or depressed I reach out and try to help others. It's not a perfect solution, but it helps me feel better.

More people read your posts than you realize. Many do not repsond because they may not know what to say. More people probably think well of you than you would suspect, but if they never let you know, you will still be alone. It would probably be useful for you to try to cultivate a few people here who you know you can go to for support. If PMs work for you and if my comments are useful to you, feel free to PM me. At any rate, it sounds like you need a few people with whom you feel you can have meaningfull, intelligent communication.

Anyway, sorry for the rather rambling quality of this... I think I understand what you are feeling and I am just trying to say that you are not quite as alone as it feels.

Good luck,

Lars

No, that is just not the case. I do wish more of us had more to offer, but your absence here would not make our own lives any better ,,, and in fact, you would be missed.


Same here.


You are not damaging anyone, but your suicide would definitely hurt many.

Stick with us.