This is the lowest point of my life, I think

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I lost my job at Fedex because I don't have the visuospatial skills required to efficiently unload a truck. I haven't been able to hold down steady employment after graduating college due to my first job getting outsourced (I digitized books for a publishing company) and then voluntarily resigning from my lofty position as a package handler at FedEx due to not even being smart enough to unload a truck. Right after resigning from my FedEx position, I dumped a girl I thought I didn't really like. Well, after dumping her, I realized I liked her. A lot. I can't stop thinking about her. She doesn't want anything to do with me after I dumped her rudely via a facebook PM.

A few weeks ago, I started taking prozac again thinking it might help these feelings of depression. It hasn't done anything. I feel lower than ever.

As a last ditch effort to get rid of my circle of friends, I told them I was moving to the coast to take a job shortly after I broke up with the girl I was dating. Not all of these guys were a bad influence on my life, but I was getting sick of the drug ridden hookup culture and wanted to focus my attention on other things. I miss them a lot and wish I hadn't lied about this.

There's some good news possibly heading my way in the near future, too. Sometime next week I'm going to find out if I got admitted into a Master's program for Applied Behavior Analysis at Penn State University. There are very strong odds I'm going to get admitted. My undergrad GPA was extremely high in a program way harder than what their usual incoming students come from and my GRE score is above the cut off range. For some reason, I can't feel happy about this even though this Master's degree is going to yield a very lucrative and possibly interesting job.

In fact, for the last few days, I've been feeling nearly suicidal. The thought of death seems pleasant and comforting. Logically, though, I realize this is a stupid idea and want nothing to do with it.

I'm just fed up with living at my parents house at nearly 25 and possibly being unemployed for the next 4 months before starting grad school in the fall. I've applied to tons of manual labor (landscaping, painting, deckhand, etc) positions in the past few weeks and haven't received a single response.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I need to go on a different anti-depressant.

Prozac can make you feell like that. It made me so bad I had to be hopitalised and taken off the drug then and there, and that was after only 7 days on the thing!

Can I sugest you see your doctor as soon as possible, tell then how you feel and see if their is another anti-depressant more suited to you.

Good luck and these feelings will pass, I have been there and they do go.

As for not being able to get a job, I graduated college 2 years ago and have only been able to find temp work. It really isn't you, loads of NT's are in the same postion, its just the bad economic time we live in.

Prozac can make you feell like that. It made me so bad I had to be hopitalised and taken off the drug then and there, and that was after only 7 days on the thing!

Can I sugest you see your doctor as soon as possible, tell then how you feel and see if their is another anti-depressant more suited to you.

Good luck and these feelings will pass, I have been there and they do go.

As for not being able to get a job, I graduated college 2 years ago and have only been able to find temp work. It really isn't you, loads of NT's are in the same postion, its just the bad economic time we live in.

Prozac can make you feell like that. It made me so bad I had to be hopitalised and taken off the drug then and there, and that was after only 7 days on the thing!

Can I sugest you see your doctor as soon as possible, tell then how you feel and see if their is another anti-depressant more suited to you.

Good luck and these feelings will pass, I have been there and they do go.

As for not being able to get a job, I graduated college 2 years ago and have only been able to find temp work. It really isn't you, loads of NT's are in the same postion, its just the bad economic time we live in.

When I feel this way (which has been a couple of times in the past 5 years, I usually try a change of scenery. I've gotten used to things not working out long term (friendships, relationships, jobs, housing) almost to the point where I plan for it in advance. Life has a funny way of making everything fall apart all at once, which I find both ironic and cruel. One of my favorite sayings is "Life happens all at once or not at all."

When things go bad, i usually try a change of scenery. Go somewhere you haven't been in a long time. Try something you've never done before. Go to websites you would never normally visit. Challenge yourself to do a hobby you've never done. I've taken it as far as moving to a different state several times. It could just as easily be something like going for a walk instead of driving somewhere. Or getting in touch with a friend you haven't talked to in years. Just a suggestion.

I hope everything works out for you. Life is like a roller coaster. Things can always get better.

well i can say that you are not alone in this struggle. even though our circumstances have very little commonality, the theme is still that these are hard, unknown, challenging times. i was laid off recently, i had a job for about a week (it was my first manual labor job and i came to the conclusion in a week that this job (regardless of the good pay) was not making me happy in addition to other environmental/personal dislikes about the job. thankfully i found a temp job fairly quickly and so that will allow me to continue living independently but in the meantime, its going to be financially and mentally challenging. but like i said it is just a temp job so i myself am still looking at my next phase of long-term employment and frankly i have no plans, no ideas, no real direction at this point. but i have noticed that when these type of unwelcomed changes whether in work or in relationships, there is now a new opportunity for personal growth, insight, reflection, and a new found tendency to test the waters in uncharted territory. in addition, im also being pushed ( by my mother of all people) to begin an active dating life. which i have only just avoided throughout my 20s. good luck and hope it works out for you.