My prophecy

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I posted in another topic that I might become the British kendama champion, followed by possibly losing my home.

Well, I am now the Scottish kendama champion, and I do not think I am welcome here any more.

I live with friends and work for food and accommodation (it's the only lifestyle I can handle). But things have been a bit stilted lately, and not because of something I have done. One of my friends is something of an attention-seeker and she loves to pick a fight. I absolutely cannot countenance confrontation, it makes me want to curl up into a ball and scream until everyone goes away.

Owing to a situation my friend created (and is incapable of apologising for) I am compelled to move on. I really don't have anywhere to go. I'm part of the WWOOF program and will most likely be going somewhere for a couple of weeks very soon. Beyond that, there is nothing. I don't have an income and can't really take care of myself.

Having a talent for such things as kendama is irrelevant in a world that demands practicality and usefulness. Only creative/playful things make sense to me, so I'm pretty well doomed.

I have, for a long time,. felt that I would one day end up homeless. People telling me to "pull myself together" makes me want to kill them. But then I can't; that would be confrontational.