about me, about my life.
if any of you remember me posting about abusing laxitives and getting horrible constipation. well it's not confermed yet, but i still need to talk.
well this is still a struggle for me, i'm now on straight magnesium citrate to help my problem, i call it the nasty red stuff. it's nasty tasting and it's red. i take 2 tablespoons daily. and i'm stablizing, because my mom may have found out why this happened in the first place.
iron overdose is what it is, the medical name is something i can't spell, if i have this that is. i'm not tested but when i look back at my whole life, it makes sense.
basicly my body stores iron from the foods i eat, and to much iron can make you constipated, give you depression, make you have severe stomach pain, makes you weak. depression can lead to anger, a dead feeling, and the urge to violently stab things when you pick up a knife. it doesn't help that i have a 6 inch long hunting knife that i bought for 21 bucks at walmart. good thing it has a sheath.
i found it strange i got depression 2 weeks before kirby died.
and the iron thing makes sense, my favorite food that i hardly mention, is rice which is high in iron, 1\2 cup has 15% iron and i usually had alot more then that regluarly. my usual dish would be upwards of 80% iron or more, which is why i got constipated so badly, i blamed a pill i took at the time, had i known i would have known it was the rice.
but even though it was eating all that rice and taking in more iron then i should have been, it wasn't that bad, because i put cheese in my rice, cheese blocks iron from being absorbed, it wasn't until i started to stop eating rice and cheese, and just rice is when it all hit the fan.
i'm on a strict low iron diet, and now i'm slowly recovering, but unlike the laxitives which i only took for 5 years straight, i've been on a high iron diet for half my life, at least 15 years.
the one thing that always stuck out for me, was i know that most girls turn into violent human beings when they get pms, or at least that's what i've heard. i never did and i wondered why for years now. the answer is pms rids the body of iron, and thus it gives my body relief.
also i just went through something i haven't felt in years, and forgot what it felt like. i was laying on the couch and for the first time in i don't know how long i was actually getting tired, i hadn't felt that in so long that i was confused by it.
if i don't have this iron disease, i will be shocked beyond words.
19 May 2011, 12:43 am
