Do I still appear to be grieving?

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This question is for the Members who have known me since pretty much, Mid December 2005. Do I still seem to be grieving the loss of my "Crimson Two Story, Shiney Poled Friend" or do I seem to be completly healed and ready to move on? Are there really any other Cities, in which I can see a "Sighting" of my "Crimson Friend"? The one that says, "Ding! Ding!"

Last edited by CockneyRebel on 17 Aug 2006, 6:14 am, edited 1 time in total.

And another question. Does anybody else consider a special object to be a "Friend" to them?

yea i do, for me its the hardware or the computer. many days when im online during day ill sit here with a couple of my door closing devices. drummer_ you know what i mean. makes me feel happy when im doing something i enjoy with something i really like and collect.

i wont be surprized if you have a routie near or on computer ( both on table or screensaver or desktop of computer) on the backround with the icons.

I've read that there are five stages of grief. I've seen the stages described as:

1) Shock and numbness (denial)
2) Yearning and searching (negotiating)
3) Disorganization and despair
4) Reorganization

You might not appreciate my analysis but I think you seem to often be in the stage of reorganization and acceptance over the loss of the Routemaster. You seem to have developed a way of using the Routemaster as a reference to make social commentary and analysis of the events happening around you. I certainly enjoy reading your posts.

I wonder what it is that the buses represent to you?

I know that for me as a British expat to me I feel a little nostalgic reading your posts about the doubledeckers because those buses to me represent a British culture that was not fragmented, where social rules were easier to understand, where (for better or worse) there were social rules and cultural events that were consistent with the values of British people. Even though many people were poor during the era of the Routemaster it was a time when people could have jobs that lasted their entire working careers. I also think that life was in some ways easier during the era of the Routemaster because there was a certain amount of postwar funding for social programs that helped people to improve their lives. To me images of those buses represent law, order, social cohesion, and the ability of the working class to "move forward" both metaphorically and physically. It's sad to have lost that culture. When I read your posts I miss the smell of Petrol!

I know you have said that you spent another lifetime in London, born not far from the bells. Maybe you are grieving that lifetime. But I also think that the buses might represent something more relevant in your life as it exists now. Have you thought about what the bus represents?

If this question is too intrusive please feel free not answer my silly question. I am just curious.

I've thought about what the Routemaster represents in my Current Life. There are two things that it represents. A Life-Long Dream to travel to London to ride around the entire City on the Routemasters, and Swingning London. I'm stuck in the British 60s, so to speak. It also symbolizes Victoria, BC. My Preschool went to Victoria, in 1980. We got to explore the inside of a Routemaster. It also reminds me of the cliche, "Jolly Old London", which doesn't seem Jolly or old anymore. I also have a suspicious feeling that I was living in the London that I've come to love and that was taken away from me, between the Late 40s and the Late 60s, in one of my Past Lives. Eleven years ago, when I was working in a Factory, I used to browse the Local Antique Shops, and that's when I've bought my first Diecast Routemaster, because it had reminded me of a Previous Life. That was back in 1995.

I know there are such things as Past Life Investigators. These are people who investigate the details of past lives to find out if such details correlate with actually historically lived lives. CBC has or had a series on this subject. If you google Past Life Investigator the CBC special will come up. I think these investigators use geneological records but also conduct interviews with people who knew the deceased. Who can know if reincarnation is real or not? Regardless, I think it would be fascinating to find out if any of your details correlate with a real lived person.

I'd like to try to get on that Show, sometime.