Just need to vent... Hugs & comfort please?

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So I just feel really down and have nobody to talk to about it and I'm sick of trying to be strong or bottle it up ATM.

I just feel completely numb and 'dead to the world' today. I feel like I have nobody I'm majorly close to, the only person that was for me was my ex. We were together for a year before deciding their sexual orientation wasn't compatible with mine. I don't miss them, I've been keeping my chin up keeping busy and whatnot but there were times in the night, like now (it's 1am...) I got really sad and called them and we'd talk about stupid s**t for hours. Now it just stings. We don't talk anymore because I overreacted (we were going to be friends, but I broke down on the phone one night, like crying hysterically bleeding etc, and after that they just completely shut down around me, distant cold etc so I decided to cut contact - I'm kicking myself for breaking down at all now... :'( )

I feel kind of purposeless and without a purpose/something long-term to work towards I feel useless and bordering suicidal. I can't remember the last time I hugged anyone. I just feel really alone (because I find it really difficult to talk about emotions with friends usually so I feel oddly detatched from them) and meh I don't know. Hopeless and don't see myself moving forward [in anything, not just whiney relationship crap]?

/Ramble.

I understand your loneliness because I'm going through it too. I am almost freakishly desperate to have a boyfriend 'cause I miss sex (two years without) and I'm hoping that the boyfriend will be a guy I can be special to!

It sucks, I know, and if you lived anywhere in metro Phoenix, I'd give you a hug...

I totally understand that feeling of being alone, and longing for a hug.
It really is a sucky feeling.
All I can say is, do something you really like in such times...a nice hot bath to comfort yourself, or curl up with a book you enjoy, or cuddle a blanket or a soft toy...or take a walk if you can. It is the only thing I have found I can do when feeling like this, for lack of anyone to turn to. Or you can just lay there and fantasise about someone hugging you and that can help also, sad as it sounds.

Meanwhile, sending you virtual hugs and hoping they reach you.

truckload of hugs sent.

*Awkward aspie hug*

((((hugs))))

such loneliness is terrible to experience. that was a long relationship for someone of your age, and it makes perfect sense you would have been very attached to them. breakups are universally very hard, so don't feel bad about feeling down and numbed by everything.

as time passes and you get a new focus, hopefully some of this sadness will pass. but for now, we are here to listen.