Parents and doctors don't understand me

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I just really need to vent about something. What happened was today I went to see my psychiatrist, whom I hate with a passion. The reason why I hate her is because she doesn't listen to me and constantly tells me I am wrong, but yet she loves my mom. It seems like every time I go in to see her she lectures me on something. Today I went in to see about tapering off a medication and I ended up being lectured on AS colleges. She told me that at these colleges I will learn how to make friends. I have tried explaining to her and my mother (who was there) that I don't want friends and that I am fine living the rest of my life alone. She said "That is AS thinking and they will help you change that." I told her that my thinking doesn't need to change, but she just ignored me. It's true though. I don't want friends. What is so wrong with that?

After that I was lectured on how I need to be more independent. In all honesty the only way I can be more independent is to get a job and move out on my own, which I am already working on. I can cook a bit and clean a bit. I care for my animals by myself and I can go shopping by myself. I do just about everything by myself, so I don't understand how I need to be more independent. No I cannot drive on my own, but that is because my doctor told me not to drive and I am going to see a neuro to see if I have Epilepsy. Do my parents believe me? No, they think I am lazy and trying to get out of driving.

I am just so angry with people telling me what I need to do and constantly telling me I am wrong. Just because they all need friends to survive doesn't mean I need friends. I just want somebody who will accept me for me and not try to change me into something I don't want. Right now if just feels like nobody cares about what I want. They all have these ideas of what I should want and what I should be and they won't accept that I will never be that person. And it's just really frustrating. It's gotten to the point that I don't even want my parents in my life anymore because they only drag me down.


Anyway, if anybody has any suggestions or advice I would really love to hear it.

P.S. I thought I would share something that I found funny. This past February I met with my psychiatrist to discuss getting an Autism Service Dog for me. She told me that I was becoming "too obsessed" with it and that I was "almost normal" and a SD would only hold me back, but today she told me that I should live in a residential facility where I will have somebody watch over me. That doesn't make sense. I am "too normal" to have a SD but yet I am so disabled that I can't live on my own? I'm honestly convinced that she got her degree from the back of a cereal box.

I am not sure how old you are, but keep working hard at your goals.

Sorry if that sounds cliche.

One day you will look back on this period of time in your life and be thankful that you worked hard and no longer have to listen to psychiatrists who try to change rather than understand / help you.

Ganbatte kudasai! Keep trying your best!

You are accepted here.

Thanks guys. That really does make me feel better. I am just sick of my parents making me feel like I can't do anything correctly. Sometimes it seems like my parents don't want me in their lives anymore because of their constant criticism.

It sounds like you need a new psychiatrist...sorry you have to deal with that.

As for the service dog thing I kind of want one myself, but I have no idea how to go about applying....maybe I will just settle for getting a non-service dog at some point. Lets just put it this way it would be really hard for me to attempt suicide if I have a dog. Though for now my friends dog works just fine.....I can't do that to her. lol

Thanks guys.

As for the service dog, I won't be getting one from an organization. I am getting a puppy from a breeder and am going to train it with a trainer. It's a lot cheaper that way.

I am sorry to tell you this, but your mom and psychiatrist are not all that wrong. You do need to learn to socialize. You dont want to make friends? Fine! But you will have to live in society. You are even talking about getting a job. How do you think that's gonna happen if you socialization skills are poor? If you are going to work in a company you need to get along with people, or you will be that guy always fired from everywhere, unless you get a job from home, and thosr are pretty difficult to find. I do agree you psychologist is not handling your case correctly. Most probably she has very little experience dealing with people with AS. I always recommend seeing a therapist specialized in Autism. Regular psychologist just dont have a clue.

Couldn't help but post this:

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Actually my social skills are pretty good, but I will check out some books from the library to see if I can learn anything new.