I'm going to explode! (rant)

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I AM SICK AND TIRED OF LIVING HERE.
My stupid dad has been unemployed, and all he does is sit at home with no shirt on with his fat nasty beer belly hanging out, belching and burping and eating disgustingly. That and he walks around in his stupid sheer tighty whitie underpants where I can see him. He always drinks alcohol, too. Him and my mom never do anything but watch TV and it's always SO loud. And they refuse to shut the living room door so I have to hear it/be connected.

They get up at like, 6 am, so I'm always woken up by him stomping back and forth because he walks so loud, that or him talking loudly on the phone about "business". The only time I ever get to myself is all night, so I've become nocturnal, but then I never get sleep during the day because he wakes me up, and it's too goddamned hot. They've got all these air conditioners (oh, but not in my room, because it would be a waste), and now they refuse to use them, because it costs too much (GET A f*****g JOB ALREADY THEN YOU C**T) so now the house is always WAY too hot, and then they leave all the doors open so I can hear them CONSTANTLY. I never get a break. They are the most annoying people to live with! They are constantly making noise! When not watching tv they're listening to music so the house shakes.

My stupid mom is a house wife but barely does the dishes so it's always dirty, we don't have a tonne of essential groceries to cook properly with, and the kitchen smells funky, and she is a lazy ass! She never does s**t and if you ask her to she gets pissed at you and "punishes you" by doing the exact opposite. She refuses to leave the house alone, and if she does leave the house, she spends like 2 hours putting on f*****g makeup, even to go to the store!! !! !!

I'm supposed to go to America in like, 20 days, my college starts September 13. They STILL haven't bought the tickets. They told me they would teach me to drive this summer... Haven't done it. They don't have an answer other then I will take a public bus to college even though I'm pretty sure there isn't one, and people get raped on the fricken American buses... And my dad promised me he would work it out so my snake could come to America. Now he's saying it's all my responsibility even though I have no f*****g idea what to do. He's the one who worked in logistics, and he promised me he would make sure my snake comes! I can't live without my snake. I NEED it to relive stress plus it's been my pet for like, 6 years. I grew up with it and can't let it go.

I'm sick of living here. I'm the last senior. I have no economical friends. The ones I do have who are here for the summer are like, 14-15 so it's awkward if I ask them to hang out with me, even though I like them a lot. This snake thing is stressing me out. And I cannot live without any sleep and constantly having to be within 10 feet of loud people who are selfish and think I'm a freak, ALL THE TIME. I can hardly leave the house because it's so bloody hot, and I have to take a bus to get anywhere. I feel dizzy and start literally dripping with sweat in the stupid weather. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything and I'm freaking out because I'm too immature to live on my own! I have such social anxiety I am even afraid to go to the store sometimes! How will I give presentations!! ! How will I even get to college if I can't drive!

I am so mad right now. I feel like I'm literally going to explode if this goes on for much longer, and I feel like I'm going to end up punching my dad or something, and it's just going to make everything worse. They're gonna take my computer away or kill my snake or something if I do that.

you'll be gone soon(:

Even when I'm gone though, what comfort is there besides being away from my parents?
I'm going to be starting from square one, truly friendless and alone in the world. I guess this will be the true test to see if I'm aspie enough for it to affect my socialising. I've had it quite easy during my high school career.

It sounds as if going to college will be a good change for you. Perhaps you can get a friend to teach you to drive after you leave. A pet snake? I like it! However, getting it out of Turkey and into the US may be the problem. Have you asked the folks at the US embasy, or counsalate about it? They might have some information for you. It looks like you will have to do everything for yourself. Regardless of what happens, you do need to prepared for a lot of hard work and you will have to learn to become independent. From what you say there doesn't seem to be much choice for you. I wish you the best of luck and remember all of us here on WP are still here to help you as best we can.

well, you were ranting about your parents....

didnt you say you're moving with/near your sister? plus you'll make loads of new friends once you start college. everyone is in the same boat and searching for people to become friends with so you wont have to put in much effort. people in college tend to be more accepting anyway, so if you were fine at high school i don't see why youd have any problems. it'll be fine(:

I think it's time to just go over their heads, if they're not doing anything. So, the snake:

http://www.aphis.usda.gov/import_export ... mals.shtml

You can apparently import elephants and rhinos, so I'm sure your snake will be fine.

Just open the computer, find the right ticket and only ask them to come over when they need to pay. The ticket is pretty important, I think. The longer you wait, the more expensive it's going to be.

I don't think American buses are as dangerous as you believe they are. It's too late to start on your license now, so you'll probably have to start on that in America.

I can imagine the torture you're going through. I would find it very difficult to live under such circumstances, especially with the heat. And stupid parents as well. I can only wish you luck. I'm sure everything will get better at some point.

Hi Spaz; what city is is your college in?

Thank you for the encouraging words, guys. I feel a bit better now, just talking about it and stuff.

It's good they will allow snakes, just need to find an airline now.... That's the hard part.

My college is Green River Community in Auburn/Kent (2 campuses), WA. I hope I will make friends... I am living off campus, so I think it won't be as easy to make friends. I am moving in with my sister. I don't want to rely on her too much if I can help it because she will be newly married, and it isn't exactly the ideal situation for either of us.

What does "It's time to just go over their heads" mean?

America is a huge place! Where in America are you moving? I am sure someone here will be in that area and can tell you what it will be like. Availability of bus travel varies greatly in each area, but is safe in most places. You shouldn't worry about the bus.

I'm moving to the Seattle area.
Ok, are buses a lot safer than they make them seem? I am very worried about it. But if you guys say so. The one I rode once in the area I will be living only had thuggish types of men on it...

I will shoot them an email! thank you for the suggestion.

People often scare me, probably because I cannot read their intentions and am afraid they will come after me. This also happens a lot on public transport. So far, I have never witnessed any kind of dangerous incident, and I am sometimes surprised by how friendly people can be despite my initial fear. I would avoid taking the bus in the late hours, though. That's when most of the bad stuff happens.

Just saw you are going to WA state near Seattle. I haven't ever been there (I am on the other coast near NYC) but I hear it is one of the prettiest areas in our country. You will be safe there, don't worry. A lot of that state has beautiful forests and natural wonders, but there is also cultural centers like Seattle which you will be near to. You are going to love it there.

For buses, you can go to maps.google.com and type in the 2 addresses then click on the bus icon and it tells you which ones to take. It's really easy, you can do it from your phone too. For most of the US you can see pictures of everything on google too and even take a virtual drive down roads so you know what it will look like. When I am going someplace unfamiliar, I do that first sometimes so I know what the buildings look like when I need to make turns driving so I don't get lost. Check it out and you will maybe feel more comfortable knowing what to expect.

Google maps does that?! Oh my, I will be using it!
I'm definitely going to keep quiet and modestly dressed if I have to ride the bus... :/

I just sent that place an email. I hope they respond.