I'm sick fed up of people's assumptions that I don't exist

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I'm sick fed up of people's implied assumptions that I don't exist. I'm having a lot more incidents in a short space of time recently, where it's as if I don't exist.

The most common incident when I pass people in the street who know me, say hello, they clearly can see me, and I'm totally blanked as if I wasn't there. This has happened so much in a short space of time that I'm adopting a policy of not acknowledging a person until they do so with me (of course if it was a close friend or family member, that's different). I mean, I'm having this embarrassment of approaching someone who knows me to say hello so many times lately in busy streets in the middle of a busy city. I don't appreciate looking like some sort of possible predator because I approached these people, them often being much younger being people from the autism centre we all attend, to be ignored.

Sometimes these incidents are subtle and almost trivial, as in the case which nevertheless took me to the edge enough to prompt me to post this. It's a stand-in receptionist at work refusing to record my presence at work while doing so with everyone else, as it's his job to do. It's as if I don't exist, despite him seeing me come and go at all times.

I'm very sensitive about this sort of thing because I do experience it a lot. After all, my parents repeatedly told and still do tell me that my birth certificate was lost, meaning that apparently my existence isn't recorded, that apparently I wasn't born. I've been able to find out differently, that their assertions I've no recorded birth are untrue.

I know how you feel I get ignored right to my face all the time in the same room-and it seems I only get acknowledged when another person actually just want something from me or if I can do something for them.