My life feels like its been pointless...

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I know this sounds a very morbid thing to say but its true. I'm 15 years old and to be fair have had a poor excuse for a life so far thanks to my overprotective grandparents (read more about this on my previous topic here: http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp3945672.html#3945672 ) . I have never done anything exciting, I have no friends. no good memories and keep thinking what if I get diagnosed with some kind of terminal cancer and only have a few months left to live, what will have I achieved?
I apologize for anyone who read the post before I edited for it being misleading. I'm not thinking straight and keep wording things wrong.

(Your link does not work so I will just respond to what you are written so far)

You are only fifteen. To be perfectly honest. Life is supposed to be pointless at that age. I started off almost identical to you except my authority figure was too loose.

You need to fill in the blanks on making a "purpose in life". Having hopes and aspirations for the future and working toward them helps having a purpose and a guiding direction.

Yup. Life is what you make it. No one can take that ultimate capability and right away from you (without physical violence of course). Thats kinda the awesome thing about living in a world with no inherent meaning - you get to make it up. And you have years and years to make it damn fun and exciting.

Dude, seriously... you're only 15!! ! When I was 15 I was a disaster. My grades were good when I was little but high school was a disaster... straight Fs... because of my poor academic career it took a while to get my life going but I did and now at 30 I can say I have had a lot of successes. Do well in school and you'll be way ahead of where I was when I was a teenager.

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I attempted suicide when I was 15, and as you can see I failed...and honestly it does not really feel like things have gotten any better, but there are some things I enjoy so I try to focus on those. But even that is sometimes difficult, I imagine if I had not had to deal with so much crap since an early age it might not have gotten as bad. I would recommend you try to find things you enjoy and focus on those......and if you're still feeling depressed maybe try counseling or something. It only gets worse the longer you try to supress it....usually the shorter amount of time you've been depressed the easier it is to overcome or at least develop good coping skills.

Thanks for the replies guys. There's a lot more to this question than meets the eye. I'm not just getting worried about this for nothing.
I have a history of oral cancer in my family, and I've had the symptoms for a while now but I never bothered to get them checked them out and just brushed them off as normal ulcers, and they've got worse other the past several months.
I don't want to get a professional diagnosis because it would worry me constantly if it turned out to be what I think it is and wouldn't be able to carry on with my life normally.
The fact that my grandparents have restricted me on so much makes me feel like I'll have missed out on a lot in life and if my times up soon then I'll have done nothing worth remembering.
I hope this makes sense.
I wouldn't be so worried if I had many more years to come. But I might not have.

Wait until you're 28 and your life is pointless.

To those who feel like life is pointless.
Well if you truly feel your life feels pointless and you are thinking of committing a suicide, perhaps you should consider dedicating your life for some good cause.
Save some human beings who could leave something remarkable in this lifetime. perhaps You should dedicate your life helping women like myself who had a lot worse than you. Because you simply feels pointless but imagine if you were sexually abused by tons of men for their lust, greed and profit. Can you possibly imagine the torment and pain of someone like her who could have had a perfect life but simply robbed off her innocence and any type of sanity and hope that were left?
You know people who are disabled or Starving children dying in Africa with some AIDS get plenty of support. but what about the true victims in our community and society that we have wilfully neglected? the ones who are currently being victimised “right in front of our eyes?” I am not saying dying children in Africa with incurable viruses like AIDS should not be saved. I believe their lives are important. but I can’t help but feel extremely disgusted at How hypocritical of people to spend exorbitant amount of money flying to other poor countries to help these children who most likely would not contribute much in terms of their intellectualism but constantly abuse, neglect, rape, exploit innocent women and men who could be very valuable members of the society if they were free of these abuses and exploitation? that’s the type of change I’d like to see in the mindset of people in today’s society. We can’t call ourselves civilised and good people in God loving country when we knowingly and unknowingly support abuse of women and their suffering. What about saving and helping the women from other countries who are currently trapped and the ones who can barely speak the language in order to find the assistance they need?
Because there is no reason why these women should be robbed of their innocence and endure something they find simply repulsive in this lifetime. Life doesn't have to be so tormented for these undeserving people for god's sake.

You don't know what's just around the corner. At 15 I was the most shy, quite, invisible girl on the planet. Then in time, I traveled the world as a military wife, and later, divorced, had a dream job in which I traveled again, while doing what I loved.

I have exceeded my dreams. You will too!