It is with red eyes and damp cheeks that I must find solace in WP for comfort...
This afternoon at 5:47pm, my family's oldest cat, Jane, was put to sleep at the age of 16. She was by far the oldest cat we ever had before she died, and outlived 3 others.
The reason why I'm so upset about it is because for the first half of her life, I'd been nothing but mean to her. Nothing physical mind you, but I always seemed to treat her as the bane of my existance, established early because she was an 'ankle biter'. Because of this tendency, she made me live in fear of getting bitten. The mildest insults I ever called her were 'pest' and 'nuisance'.
But when she mellowed out at the age of 10, she actually started to come to me without benevolent intentions. I guess it was because what with all the younger cats we took in, Jane started to feel neglected. One afternoon, after hearing her usual pestering pawing at my bedroom door, I finally decided to cut her a break and let her in. She entered and rubbed against me and purred...and that just totally melted my heart. From that point on, I was her 'go to' human for comfort. True, this created the newer annoyance of her never letting me have a moment's peace, but she usually slept under my bed and left me to my own devices.
And this afternoon....damn...she looked skinnier then ever...she had trouble walking...she couldn't even lower her head down to drink out of her water dish without meowing so pitifully. She even collapsed while walking across the kitchen to get to said bowl. Both Mom and Dad realized she probably wouldn't survive through the night, and wouldn't let her die under such cruel circumstances, so they called the vet, set up an immediate visit, and collected Jane in our cat carrier. She must've been in pain, because she didn't even resist like she usually does. I peered at her one last time through the mesh and said "Goodbye, Jane...until the next life, my friend."
And now she's gone. *fights the urge to cry again*
My heart is filled with sorrow's pain...
I'll always love a cat named Jane.
Usagi1992