krex wrote:
Steelmaiden....I dont know how long you have been in recovery, but it does take time....anarexia can effect your matabilism,brain chemistry,hormones and many other health issues...My limited understanding of it is that it is in part about "control" for individuals who often feel (some correctly),that they do not have alot of control over things and people in their environment..Some elements are a form of 'self-abuse"...(similiar to cutting/drug abuse/sexual promiscuity)based on a feeling of not being "OK" and worthy of punishment(or a desire to punish others but a strong morality that it is wrong to hurt others)...there can also be a problem with "body dysmorphic disorder"that what you see in the mirror does not accuratly "reflect" your true image...ie...most people would see your bones but you see a blown up body...(I have problems with this regaurding my face and body)...
I guess, my point is that the cause is often complex and there for difficult to change behavior....it sounds like you are on the road to recovery, to me.I could never give up the exercise...it is healthy and reduces stress and releases endorphins...but I dont know how intrussive your exercise is to your daily life....the basis of an "addiction" is that it effects our dailey life negatively...is this true for you (besides the weight issue?)Does it interfer with relationships,homework or job...are you physically harming your body with repetitive motions(problem with tendons and joints as you age)?
If not harmful to you I wouldnt stop the excercise.I would suggest you have your thyroid checked to make sure it isnt overactive(hyper-thyroid)if that is ruled out...maybe you can try to "bulk-up" the way many athletes do....you maynot be getting enough carbs or protein if you are exercising alot..."normal calories for basically sendentary society is NOT enough for athlets...there are also many protein shakes and such for athlets(I dont know much about these)but they might be helpful....ruling out a physical problem with your matabilism and an unconcious desire "Not to regain the weight"...the only other thing I can think of is more healthy callories....
Good luck...(have you tried online support groups?I am sure they would know more about this then me)
Excellent advice! I will tell you that I recently replaced my scales (the ones that I had were very old) and I actually weigh 41kg, which gives me a BMI of 15.6. My goal weight is 42kg for the short term, so I am doing well. I have concluded that I have a slightly overactive thyroid (I have a good appetite) as I have some of the symptoms of hyperthyroidism (I read a lot of medicine and anatomy), but not all, such as the warm, sweaty skin.
I am on the road to recovery well now, as I am gaining weight (finally!) and I am getting much stronger (I picked up a 5kg box and it felt like lifting nothing to me). I can also run for longer distances.
What I don't like is the unpredictability of meal times and meals during the holidays. I cannot predict how many calories I will consume so I find it difficult to spread it out during the day, and end up eating more in the evenings.
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I am a partially verbal classic autistic. I am a pharmacology student with full time support.