Should I just end it now?

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Today is just one of those days when it really hits. The loneliness, despair, misery, depression, and frustration just get to be a bit much. I might need to stop to coming to this site so much. A few posts I read today mad me so mad and frustrated that I actually felt like hurting someone. That certainly doesn't help.

I've been feeling this way for the past few years, and lately it's starting to wear on me. It's like I'm running out of reasons to keep living.

I'm alone, poor, and have nothing going for me. I might be homeless in a few year when my grandma croaks. (it's inevitable)

I'm butt ugly, slow and stupid, a 9th grade sped drop out, boring, uninteresting, irritating and annoying. I have no friends and have never dated, and no girl will probably ever be interested in me. I'm also a 25 year old hermit that barely knows how to bathe and take care of himself. My only interests are video games, anime, porn, and certain shows on tv.

My future is one that is bleak, and has no hope or chance for happiness or love. Why shouldn't I just off myself now and save myself from more pain and misery in the future?

Before you make a decision, write down a list of everyone who would be both sorry to see you go, and happy to see you go. After you do that, contact each of them and see what they have to say. I never make an important decision without consulting as many stakeholders as possible, as it tends to preserve harmony and order in the world. I like an orderly world. Don't you?

I say you definitely should not for the reasons I've laid out before. I understand that you feel very bad now and I want you to not suffer any longer and you can do that AND continue living. I actually physically drew up a chart putting all of the reasons you believe you have to end your life into categories by why they are not reasons to end your life and it leaves 0 reasons to end it. I know you feel bad and I didn't want to seem flippant by posting it but I can if you have any interest in seeing it. I can't tell you how frustrating it is to see a fellow person suffering and believing they are doomed when I can see they are not. And it does not take any kind of special vision to see it, just an outside perspective. It is hard when you are mired in your own difficult circumstances, most debilitating of all depression, to see that they are ones that you can get out of and be happy.

I really think you need to talk to mental health professionals about ways to stop feeling like this.

If you feel really bad and like you might harm yourself please call 911.

BTW Purchase, I appreciate your advice, although I don't how much help it'll be at this point.

Thanks anyway.

You're too nice, nice to the point of being kinda creepy.

Two things keep me from committing suicide:

1) I will botch the attempt and become even less functional and even more dependent on others.

2) The possibility of reincarnation - I could come back even worse off.

Oh, and there's always the possibility that things will get better (I have a hard time believing this one, but you never know.)

I agree with the above posters - tell your doctor that you are having these feelings. Medications can help.

Sometimes people in care homes aren't treated so well, and having a relative visit every now and keep an eye on things (and keep the staff "on thier toes") can help to prevent that. So, your sister might need your help in the future.

Just say no to suicide.

^ believe it or not, some people actually do care about other people when they're feeling suicidal.