Are the two things that I've decided not to do. I've cancled "Red Candle Day." I've done that, because I'll have my own place, therefore I'll be able to grieve the demise of the Routemaster in a way that's proper for me. That proper way for me to grieve, will be for me to allow my Tears to flow for a two minute period on what coincidently turns out to be the 9th of whatever the month is, every time. A 30 second cry is just a cop-out, when you consider just how much the Routemaster means to me. That's not the cry of a Real Woman or Man who's lost something that happened to be the eccense of their very Heart and Soul. Anything over 2 minutes would be a Pity Party. I say what I mean and mean what I say, and over the past 11 months, I've been telling all of you that I don't pity myself, anymore. I think that a 2 minute cry would be a real Grownup's cry that I can reserve for the 9th of every month from now on, until I'm really done with the grieving proccess, and than I can get on with that monthly date, as though I've never shed a tear. No more "Red Candle Days" and no more stupid reasons for turning my Mountian into a Molehill. I'm in Canada, but having the Mind and living the life of a British Cockney just makes perfect sense to me. What's right for my hyper-Canadian family members and relatives is not right for me, and I'm fine with that.
06 Oct 2006, 9:23 am
