And I was having such a good day...
My mum had her birthday today (I gave her a book of Wordsworth she had asked for), and I had such a good day, as she went out, and I managed to hire not only "Jacob's Ladder", a movie I had been meaning to see for ages, but also "Kingdom Hearts 2".
A birthday dinner had been arranged with my grandmother, my great aunt (I think), one of my mum's friends....
...and my brother and his girlfriend.
I had no objection, but my brother, who had bought "Kingdom Hearts 2" some time ago, saw fit to criticise how I played the f*****g game! I told him not to, politely at first. Then, I snapped, and he threatened to punch me in the face. He then demanded the DVDs and game I had borrowed back, which I did. When I demanded my "Red Dwarf" DVD back, he told me (he hadn't brought it back tonight, although I had asked him) he will throw it away, DESPITE THE f*****g FACT I GAVE HIM BACK HIS THINGS WITH BARELY A f*****g WORD! I threatened to kill him. He cried to my mother. Didn't tell my mother he had got what he wanted back, and threatened my DVD.
That little piece of s**t has no right! He is younger than me, therefore, he should be cowed by ME!! !! !!
I also threatened to trash his flat if he didn't give me back the DVD.
HE HAS NO RIGHT TO DO SO! ALL MY f*****g LIFE, I HAVE BEEN UNDER HIS f*****g SHADOW. HE SUCKS UP TO MY DAD, DOESN'T EVEN LET ME GIVE LIGHT-HEARTED JABS TO DAD, OR EVEN LETS ME DISCIPLINE MY LITTLE f*****s OF SECOND COUSINS, DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEY ARE UNDISCIPLINED LITTLE f*****s, AND DO ANYTHING GIVEN HALF A f*****g CHANCE!
I am f*****g so down right now. I feel like I'll die in a week, my back aches, and I'm sure that pain are my kidneys on strike. I have tried to show my brother as much courtesy as I could, and he sees fit to f*****g CRITICISE ME?
HE SHOULD BE ON HIS f*****g KNEES, BEGGING FOR MY FORGIVENESS! FOR MY INDULGENCE!
He's got a girlfriend (she's a nice person, that neither I, or he deserves), and he calls me fat and ugly. He keeps on going on about how my crack shows, even if there is barely a f*****g millimetre showing.
I AM SO f*****g SICK OF IT! I AM ON THE VERGE OF HARMING EITHER MYSELF OR OTHERS!! !! !
I have only a few people in this s**thole of a world that care for me, and my brother definitely isn't one of them...
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