I like hypomania over anhedonia/avolition those are my killers. I get way more suicidal because of that than mania. With hypomaina I almost feel normal like I can do things properly/creatively even if it comes off a little eccentric. I do get more depressed from hypomania but it's better than sitting in your bed feeling nothing/unable to do anything. I have pretty bad mood swings too but it's the lack emotions that gets to me the most. Sometimes I feel like a zombie and I could spend days in bed sleeping or staring at the wall.