How I should accept my place in this life. How my sister and brother-in-law are sick of hearing how they have it better than I do. f**k you! (not you guys on the forum).
Part of the reason this is boiling up right now is that I realize that girls on OkCupid around here expect me to have a car. I don't have one.
My sister says some custodian at the school where she teaches has some mental difficulties but accepts his place in life. f**k that! Accepts the place G*d has given him, etc. (no, I don't want to make this a PPR post, so I won't say more on...)
My B.I.L. said this to me once by email about my lack of getting anywhere despite my IQ level: "I did not compare my success to yours I compared my human nature to yours not wanting to do something we all get that way wanted to share with you that you are not unique in having those feelings. Sick or healthy we all at times do not want to do things."
Do you know how hard it is to do that with major depression, extreme ADD, anxiety, OCD, schizo=whatever? I hardly could leave the house for years because of extreme fears (phobia, delusional/paranoid, mood swing-related fears). And if I didn't have fears, ADD would get in the way of getting things done. Fortunately, my meds are much better now.
08 Jan 2012, 2:09 pm
