'Holing up' or 'getting stuck' or 'trapped' inside your self

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I find my self holing up in my room lately because of depression, lack of goals, etc

I would compare myself to a 'mummy' who gets 'stuck' in 1 place for a very long time. ie getting stuck on a project preventing me from moving on or going out, even when my friends need my company.

This is why I found ___ drugs highly revealing of what kind of mental state I am in. A kind of catatonic state where I can 'do nothing' but be trapped inside my mind without moving, but with intense and deep type of conscientious thinking.

I find that if there is not 100% willpower to go to X place and do X thing, X goal will *NOT* be achieved.
I find this is an autistic kind of thinking. ie. 'whats the point of going out if i don't feel like it' 'whats the point of applying for jobs if no one wants to hire me' 'whats the point of going to uni when its too god damn far away'
even when I find time and time again that spending time with people is beneficial for my life, or doing something outside the house is beneficial.

Is this an autistic quirk that causes a person to get 'stuck' in 1 place ie. their house for days on end, when there is no goal, or thought, or reason, to go out?

I'm in the exact same rut as you almost. I'm becoming agoraphobic and it's embarrassing, I'm 25 and I moved back in with my parents. I run a home daycare but still...

I did what you are describing several years ago. It might help if you think to yourself "I'm definitely going for a walk today" and have a walk around wherever you live. Or you could watch a film every night and talk about it with someone or on here. Just little things that ease you out of your comfort zone.

I do not leave my house unless I have somewhere to go. For that reason, i find places (besides my job) to go. Most of the time, those places end up being a bar or coffee shop since i can usually watch other humans in those places without actually having to interact with them.

I am a very data-based person i.e. I make decisions about today based upon the results of what i have done every other day in my life and the outcome of those actions. Overall, leaving my house has not resulted in what I consider to be positive outcomes.

Sometimes i think the only reason I keep leaving my house is because i am addicted to collecting this data...be it good or bad. I suppose leaving my comfort zone has, itself, become a special interest.

I get stuck in moments a hundred times a day. I forget what I'm supposed to do next and get lost in my own consciousness. I'm not sure if that's a bad thing.

But when I have to go out, it does me good - opens my mind back up.

I love this forum. I came here to ask about this. People here understand.

Holing up can be the right thing to do.

When you have no hope, shutting down is the right thing to do. Why be open to things that will only hurt you?

Lack of goals can be a very good thing. Or selfish, unthinking goals are also good. The happiest people I know have no goals. The unhappiest person I know have very high goals, and that makes that person unable to connect to other people in any way, and causes all of his normal interactions (jobs, relationships, secondary goals) to fail.

When you are trapped in hell with no hope of escape, then shutting down your mind is the only way to achieve peace.