If there where a cure for this curse I would use it ASAP.

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Asperger's to me brings nothing but anguish. For the rest of you with you're seemingly high intellect
its more enjoyable. I can not write or comprehend basic mathematics along with Asperger's I suffer from ADHD and Dyscalculia, If there where a cure I would gladly take it, whatever the cost maybe. My entire life fell apart after receiving this diagnoses.

That is interesting to me: Why did your life "fall apart" after receiving the diagnosis? AS is lifelong and your problems should have been exactly the same before as after.

Did people start treating you differently? Did you lose access to assistance or accommodations? Did you change your opinion of yourself?

Think back about what you've learned about disability through your cultural upbringing: Things like, disabled people are useless, disabled people can't have talents, disabled people can't work, disability is obvious and severe all the time, etc. Look at those face-on and question them thoroughly. Ask yourself whether they really apply to you. Did you start to think badly of yourself because you were labeled with a disability and thought that all that stuff now magically applies to you, when it didn't before?

Okay, so you suck at math. Plenty of people suck at math. Plenty of people suck at writing. Plenty of people have ADHD. You're not alone and you're not the first person to face this problem; people before you have solved it. It needn't take over your life. There is nothing wrong with having autism, nothing wrong with having a disability. Disability is a normal part of the human experience. What, you thought life was supposed to be easy? It's not. Not for us, not for NTs; not for anybody. But it is worth it.

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I would take the cure as soon as possible aswell. I'm not intelligent, I have talents but I have talents what anybody could do - I've met NTs who can play the piano from memory, and talents aren't an Autistic trait anyway, I know NTs who have more talents than me anyway.

And I hate having to walk down the road and being looked at without doing anything to encourage funny looks.

And my condition goes against me getting a job, and then I get the same dilemma each time I apply for a job or attend an interview: ''will telling the employer lessen my chances of getting the job? Will not telling the employer make things worse by being misunderstood when I come to difficulty in the workplace over something most people would be able to do more easily?'' I just envy people who can write N/A in the disability box and move on.

And I hate being at risk of saying the wrong thing without meaning to. It's as though I don't trust myself. I wish I had normal social skills, like everybody else around me.

And I hate being a target for teenagers to get cheap entertainment from. I find I have to avoid public places when they are all coming out of school, and I've come to dread the school holidays.

Yes that is my main reason why I feel demoralized by this condition, I'm not intelligent whats soo ever, its rather well demoralizing. I don't have any talents and it feels that out of all the positive aspects of being autistic all I receive is the negative aspects and also its true I think badly of my self as well as the opinions of others have changed because I was diagnosed. I think for me the main part is that its aspergers if it where a lower form of autism I would feel better.

I just think you suffer more when you're fully aware of what you're missing out on. I'm self aware to the same extent as NTs, and so I'm afraid to humiliate myself, yet at the same time I'm clueless of how to not humiliate myself, and it causes self-hatred.

It's like Autism is like being stuck forever inside a box with no holes so you can't see what you're missing, and mild Aspies are stuck in a box forever but with lots of holes where they see clearly the world outside the box but can't be part of it properly because you're trapped in this box.

If I were a NT who was starving I wouldn't hate my life as much. Anything to find a sense of belonging and end this pain!