I don't know if I'm a terrible person for thinking this way, but sometimes I feel I may hate my own father. It's something I've tried to put up with for years, but I keep getting more and more annoyed by his presence in my house. He NEVER cleans up after himself (and always leaves a mess, which gets me really annoyed), he speaks to women like they're children, and only has two default emotions - annoyingly tired and angry or annoyingly drunk (thinking he's funnier than he is). He keeps teasing me in a way I can't stand, and then he gets angry or just doesn't see it when I try to show him what it's like. It's like taking care of a baby (if it's not completely satisfied everyone suffers), except you know it should be taking care of itself by now.
One very annoying thing he keeps doing is having the television turned up so loud I can't sleep at night (or having it really loud in the morning). Even my mother admits he turns it up loud, and father STILL won't go get a hearing test to see if something is wrong with his hearing. I have to keep getting out of bed and coming in there and asking my parents to turn the volume down.
Luckily, sometimes he has to go away for weeks on business trips. During these times, our house is so much quieter and cleaner, and everyone just seems to get along much better. Why do I like these times so much, and then get depressed when he comes back?
My father is more severely aspergers than I am. My mother told me his parents never took the time to raise him when he was a boy, and just let him go out into the bush by himself and shoot rabbits when he was 8 years old. The house he lived in also got really dirty and crowded because nobody ever cleaned up. My father has had many jobs because he just can't decide what's right for him, and also because he classifies anyone who doesn't do what he says as "idiots".
It's awkward talking with him in a conversation, and my mother says I should just walk away or go out if I wind up arguing with him (but it's difficult when this person lives in your own home). I really try not to hate anyone, but he's one of the most annoying people I've known in life. He's the reason my sister moved out of the family house at only 17.
17 Apr 2012, 11:50 pm
