I think bad times return for me (not whine)

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mood swings. I'm terribly depressed. I'd do sports but my vein jumped and I can't move my arm/palm. I think it's because I lift too heavy of weight , or I just had my arm in a wrong position and it's sucks.

but the main reason is that I want stuff I will NEVER be able to get that others have. When my social worker told me I'm better off getting someone with either some kind of disabillity/struggle (TBH I was so sad, because alot of NT girls fancied me in high school so I KNOW I can do more) no disrespect to girls with AS or disabillity I'd gladly be with them! I just don't want to be FORCED to be LIMITED. That's it. Every girl is different. A diagnosis is just a word. I don't care.

It's not about dating through, I will never be able to have a good singing voice and that's something I REALLY depressed about. WHY? because I gotta be perfect at everything. Gotta be the best. And when I am not it's the worlds end.

I am not whining or anything. I know what to do to get better. I'll have a nice shower, finish cleaning up my room and be with friends. First two are no problem for me. Now I DO have friends, it's just everybody's working today, or doing service or W/E so going out is not an option since they're exhausted and I haven't called anyone (its already almost 19:00 PM so yeah). So... I'd like someone to talk to, just, ... the last couple of days I was isolated and saw nobody!! If boredom will strike again I might lose it :\

That is not something a social worker should tell you. A social worker is meant to advise and help you with things you're struggling with, not tell you what you should or should not do. You should make sure to tell your social worker that. For some people, it might be something that breaks their trust in social workers rather than a slight annoyance. It might make the rest of their career a lot more comfortable if they know where their limits are.



Everyone has things they're better or worse at than the general population. It doesn't matter if your singing isn't extremely good. I've always told myself there is one thing, or perhaps even more, that I'm good enough at to get through life comfortably. My talking voice annoys even me, I look so young I'm refused beer even though people several years younger than me are given beer with no thought, but I have logic and language to help me in life.

with all the clarity of dream
the sky so blue, the grass so green
the rank and file and the navy blue
the deep and strong, the straight and true

the blue line they got the given sign
the belts and boots marched forward in time
the wood and the leather the club and shield
swept like a wave across the battlefield

now with all the clarity of dream
the blood so red, the grass so green
the gleam of spur on the chestnut flank
the cavalry did burst upon the ranks

oh the iron will and the iron hand
in england's green and pleasant land
no music for the shameful scene
that night they said it had even shocked the queen

well alas we've seen it all before
knights in armour, days for yore
the same old fears and the same old crimes
we haven't changed since ancient times

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I just realised you're next to Israel. I hadn't noticed that yet. Never been to the Middle East. Is it really a desert full of terrorists, oil and American soldiers?
That's how they usually portray it here.

Where I am in a city full of belly dancers, pollution and horny tourists.

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Thanks for the useful post

TBH I now feel better, I went some running and had a good shower, so yeah you know... it's just.... sometimes ppl like make you this small and those are ppl who suppose to care about you you know what I'm talking about? I mean from my enemies I'd except slander and ignorancy, but not from my friends :O

You do look young but that's an advantage I look young too and believe me when you reach like 70 you'll get 40 year old girls knocking at your front door (assuming you'll need girls and not have a wife, that is) How old are you?

EDIT: WOAH, I'm 100% sure I posted this on HAVEN who put this in L&D?

it was not moved, so you must have put the thread in Love & Dating. it has now been moved to the Haven