Another botched suicide attempt.

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Everything came to a head Wednesday, and I ended up spending two days in a psych ward... for nothing.
I tried to strangle myself with my belt in a bathroom stall, but I got caught.
Now, my parents are constantly barging in my f*****g room to make sure I'm safe. It's suicide watch time at the house of Giftorcurse.
I think I'm starting to embrace cynicism.
I feel pissed right now. I hate my mother, that f*****g b***h... why doesn't she just crawl back into bed and pop some pills for some nonexistent ailment?

Well it's nice to see you survived. You sure seem bitter, though. Life is worth living. Your parents did you a favour. You should share your story of your 2 day hospitalization. It'll be a good release for you as there's strength in sharing.

f**k that.

Um, I've been where you are, okay? I'm not speaking like I read about this stuff on the internet. I washed down 48 sleeping pills with Michelob years ago. For my efforts I earned 2 months in a psych hospital. While I was there I wrote a book of fairy tales mainly because I stayed to myself all the time. In any case, I've found that talking about your experiences, whether disguised in my tales or right here on the forums, is therapeutic. Just trying to help.

Well, I haven't written jack and s**t. My friends think I should do something lighter and softer. You believe that?

What do you mean by lighter/softer? A lighter/softer forum entry? A lighter/softer attempt at suicide? A lighter/softer recount of your hospitalization? You know why it's good to talk about your troubles? It's because other people, especially teens like yourself, can benefit from it. My goodness! Wrong Planet is turning into Suicide Central!

Gift or Curse. Is your moniker in reference to whether you believe ASD is a gift or curse?

When I was 18 I was all over the map with emotions, up down left right sidways.

I'm nearing 20 now and I can tell you I feel a lot more stable.

I was very close to trying it but I somehow kept myself alive.. please give it some time!
I hope it calms down for you, it isn't fun I know but it gets more tolerable for sure.

well i am glad you survived. i have no idea who you are, but it doesn't make it any g** damn easier. i had an uncle kill himself. we weren't close, but the ripples of the action went wide. i hope you get what i mean. *shrug*

In response to redrobin:

I meant writing something lighter and softer, or in my view, cutesy and kitschy.

I don't know the back story, your friend posted that you'll talk about it when you're ready to I guess. For the time being, 'forget' your mom and channel yourself. I have some experience with family members addicted to painkillers

It's a cry for attention. Now that you have ours, what do you want to say? I am listening.

I hope you never try that again.

I feel your pain Giftorcurse
I am contemplating

can also relate about your mother but i won't live in the past or blame others... just pray for better days.

Glad to see you're still among the breathing. Been down that route and decided it hurt more to stay here until fate steps in. Way old now, watching everything stay the same, but i hope you find a better result than i did.
Do what you need to do to
be well.
- another one who has seen that.

why did you try to kill yourself?

and think if you kill yourself you will hart everone feelings for years


please try to get some help

you should talk to your pernts about it