Man I just can't seem to catch a break, just one break that can help me get out of this funk I'm in. Since I am entering my senior year at college I have to complete an internship over the summer in order to graduate...I've applied to about 15-20 different ones...I have heard back from about 7 of them, which were all filled or they weren't interested in an interview.
Then my sister works for the state and she told me about applying for a database entry internship that would be in her division (education). I got an email last week, after applying, for an interview today and I was so excited. Now if I got the job, it would of been perfect...I would work Monday thru Friday in the same office as my sister and I wouldn't have to worry about driving, gas, or parking fees. Plus it was a paid internship and it looked to be around $6,000 for the summer.
Now the email said there were 5 openings and about 20 applicants to be interviewed, so I didn't get my hopes up. But when I arrived today, I counted 8 other kids and with me added, that made 9. When the main lady brought us all in to give us an overview, she said they added 2 more spots.
So I wasn't worried at all. I gave my interview and felt like I did an pretty damn good job. For the question where I had to talk about experience in the field, my lack of exp. was mentioned but I said how my education has given me the skills and abilities to perform database entry at a high level. I had just taken a class that dealt with it and learned how to use SPSS, which is a database entry program and I also mentioned I achieved a perfect score on a state exam for clerical worker (which the job title was officially).
So I was already planning ahead, my sister met me for lunch and we were talking about Monday because we were both sure that I would be hired, since I had a 80% chance.
Then just a little past 2 (interview was at 10am), the main lady in the interview room (it was a group interview) called to inform me that I wasn't selected for the internship program. She said "the competition was really tough and everyone was a very good applicant." I accepted the news but asked if my interview was good and she said "it was actually very good but we had to make a tough choice."
Which brings me to my next point...I F*CKIN HATE POLITICS!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !
After I told my sister, she felt bad obviously and pissed me off even more when she told me about some of the candidates....
One girl was the main lady's daughter...that = obvious hire. At least 3 other candidates I saw entered with a parent that worked there as well. My sister said she recognized most of the last names on the list (they get an mass email). Also it probably didn't help my cause that the rest of the interviewers besides the lady were all men, a couple young guys (like 30's). I say this because a couple girls that were candidates were smokin'. I'm sure that has some factor in it as well.
And so your probably saying, "why are you complaining about politics when your sister works there and can help you out."
Problem is she has no pull...she is just a secretary, and the fact that most of the names on the list were children instead of siblings + the last names were higher ranks probably lead to my demise. Plus a few days ago she tried to make a case for me to the main lady and the main lady told her back. "well it would be nice for everyone," in a snotty tone (my sister had said it would be nice if I got it).
I can't think of any other reason. I did everything right in my interview, probably was the best dressed guy there, and it can't be lack of experience because how can every single one of the applicants have experience at a high level of database entry at age 18-20...it's not feasible, everyone is in school and has normal jobs like working at the mall, fast food, convenience, etc...
I'm just lost...I'm at a dead end and I feel like everything is crumbling down before me. I got in another fight with my mom after my sister broke the news. I don't deserve this sh*t...I didn't do nothing wrong, but apparently I must of been a ret*d (according to mom).
Things need to turn around fast because I really can't take this anymore...my future is looking bleaker with every passing day and I'm mentally exhausted. I'm breaking down in tears as I'm writing this and I don't know what to do anymore...please someone help.
31 May 2012, 11:41 pm
