I liked how well you expressed your feelings. Remember, everyone on the planet is crazy, so in that sense, you fit right in. Also, I am not scum, and neither are most of the others here at WP, so obviously not everyone is scum. However, some people are--I've met quite a few over my 5+ decades on this planet.
Now, take a few deep breathes and chill. Then try some of these coping methods.
- Exercise. It generates mood boosting endorphins.
- Read funny stories and watch funny shows. Humor also generates endorphins.
- Eat healthy, and enough of it. A healthier diet will boost your immune system and is also good for your mind. Skimping on amount of food leads to depression, crankiness, and being more prone to get sick.
- Get enough rest. Being tired leads to depression, crankiness, and being more prone to get sick, too.
- Listen to and/or play music. This is mood boosting.
- Take courses, either in person, or online. Some of the online ones are free. The in person ones are a good way to meet people.
- Volunteer. There are people worse off than we are, who would really appreciate the help. It's also a good way to meet people, and boost your self image and mood.
- Take up a hobby or join a club. These are good ways to meet people who share your interests.
- Get involved in community activities. Attend town meetings, events at local libraries and other local organizations. Attend local sporting events, fairs, and art shows. Attend and/or participate in local theater groups. Attend events held at local houses of worship. These are all great ways to meet people and boost your self image and mood.
Hope this helps! 