Tequila wrote:
atdevel wrote:
This applies to me at 19, who else is in this situation? I feel that I'm genetically incapable of getting my first kiss in the same way I'm genetically incapable of changing my eye color. I don't even want to go to college anymore since I feel angry everytime I see a couple making out. Also the classes are useless.
I'd join the army so I wouldn't have to think about it, but I might be deployed and have no choice.
This is probably half the forum.
I too think that in these forums, a huge number of the folks here share your experience. I remember how it was back at school, everyone was having a girlfriend or boyfriend, but I didn't. Never understood why, what I did wrong or what the others did better than me, but it soon started to fade, as I was really ashamed of myself because I thought I wasn't normal (man, if only I knew back then I was right... it would have been so much different). I'm 7 years older than you, and nothing has changed. I can only say that at one point, you start to accept the things you can't change, instead of struggling while fighting against it. Don't do anything you might regret later! Just go on with your life, either you will find love some day (or it may find you), or you find your fullfillment elsewhere.