I got woken up today by a call from a friend of mine. He was in the hospital since last night when he tried to overdose on prescription anxiety meds. This is the third or fourth time he has been in the hospital for threatening suicide and now, attempting it. Sadly though, it looks like this will be another walk through the revolving door of the mental health system that exists for the poor and uninsured. He's likely to get out tomorrow and after that I don't know what will happen.
Sadly though, I am not in any condition to help him right now as I too am suffering from worsening depression and suicidal thoughts. I have an advantage though in that I do not drink or use drugs, so it is easier for me to keep myself from doing it than my friend (who drinks and tends to get really bad only when drunk). All I can do is try to listen and keep his mind off of things as it is getting very hard for me to be positive about my own life, let alone help someone else be positive about theirs. I just don't know what to do as I want to help but have run out of emotional capital.
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Uncertain of diagnosis, either ADHD or Aspergers.
Aspie quiz: 143/200 AS, 81/200 NT; AQ 43; "eyes" 17/39, EQ/SQ 21/51 BAPQ: Autistic/BAP- You scored 92 aloof, 111 rigid and 103 pragmatic