I think I've just about had it with going out in public!

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Between people being STUPID and mean and just plain not caring, I'm just about at the end of my rope when it comes to going out in public and dealing with people! I'll explain more later, but I will say that I'll probably never go to my local Subway's ever again.

Me too. I only leave my place to go grocery shopping now

Maybe there's a better sub sandwich place to go to in your area. Their sandwiches are getting more expensive now and they aren't even that good compared to a legit sub establishment to be honest! They also hire better people for the job or at least where I am from.

Heck, it's a miracle I even go grocery shopping myself. I'm a firm, FIRM believer that mother's should NOT bring their kids shopping with them, because they don't know how to ACT! I mean, SERIOUSLY, one year I couldn't go to Wal-Mart ONE SINGLE TIME without some kid starting to cry because he couldn't get his/her way. I think that if I go off the slippery slope any further, my family is going to have to do my shopping for me, because I'm through with people.

Actually, yes there is; Moe's Sandwich Shop, which is actually in the same building structure as my apartment. I just don't eat there all the time because it would hit my wallet hard, ya know?

anyways, between people taking their sweet f**king time to cross the road because they're YAPPING in their cell phones and too many people in line, the straw that broke my back was when I went to Subway's and was ready to order, when some new employee accidentally dropped an empty tray, and his b***h supervisor gave him such a dirty look, as if she was saying without words, 'are you that stupid?" I...I just had to remove myself from the place to keep from lashing out and having the urge to scratch up that b***h's car, because I'm already on probation and I can't afford to get in trouble again. It's that same feeling of anger that got me a summons and a fine of 350 dollars because I acted out on it.

Well, I did buy some comfort dvd's to make me feel better...who knows how I'll feel tomorrow...

But like I said, I'm pretty much through with other people...they just complicate my life.

Yeah, been there, done that (had bad/negative experience w/some random person) about a million times.

I use the self-check out at the grocery store whenever I can, and other things to minimize contact with humans. They're so often a buzz-kill on days when I'm feeling good that I prefer to avoid. Since being on anti-depressants I care less and obsess less on when stuff like that happens, though. That's been the most helpful effect for me, besides stopping suicidal thoughts.

Sometimes I wish I could do like the character named "Celty" in "Duarara"
She wears the motorcycle helmet due to not having a head. And because not having a head means she can't speak she uses an AAC device to communicate. That eliminates the possibility of misread non-verbal communication (well, except for body language).

P.S. - my apologies for using the 'b'-word in my previous post...I didn't think it would get censored...usually I'm good about self-censoring myself...I guess I was still a little cheesed off. Gomen.

Everyone with auditory problems: try listening to music when you go out, using earbuds. Use the self-checkout line.

I'm back, and guess what? I got my buttons pushed again, this time as I was ready to check out of a supermarket. I dunno if I've mentioned this in a previous post as my old profile, but my biggest pet peeve when it comes to shopping in markets is the young kids who get a little hyper, because it means that annoyed parent is going to tell them to stop it or cut it out...and somehow, that REALLY rubs me the wrong way...in fact, and this is my first time mentioning this...THAT was the reason why I randomly scratched up 2 cars in the parking lot and wound up paying a $350 fine; as a way of striking back.

Well, because I can't afford to get in trouble again, I simply muttered 'every time, every goddamn time' as I pulled out of that checkout line, and parked my cart of food in a random empty isle, and LEFT IT THERE! Thankfully, my father was willing to take me to the other market in Sanford, and thankfully, nothing set me off in there! Otherwise, I don't think I would've been able to stop myself from shouting "F**KING S**T! You've GOTTA BE KIDDING ME! No way, uh-uh! I'm done! F*** this!" and walking out.

So yeah...this incident just narrowly avoided being catastrophic enough (for me anyway) to just stop going out shopping altogether. But if this keeps up, I'm absolutely finished with going to the market.

And P.S. to Gnonymouse - interestingly, I did come close to using to self-checkout line, but I went back to put something back, someone else was there, so I went to a normal line, and that's when it happened.

I don't even go with my parents to restaurants anymore. When I go out in public, most places anyway, people see my tattoos and think that I'm trying to look like a tough guy or something. They then notice my fearful demeanor, and start laughing and making comments to their friends. I start getting really mad, but something tells me I'm just being paranoid. Because I think I'm being paranoid, I don't say anything. If someone were to say something directly to me, then I would know for sure. And if that happened, I would say something to them. If they are jerks enough to laugh at someone like me, then I imagine that they'd make another comment back. And if that happened, I would attack them. Definitely.
Golf, on the other hand, is a different story. I've only been golfing twice, but I loved it. There's no crowd on a public course, maybe 20-50 people most of the time. And at that, they're all spread out. Even when I have talked to other people on a course, they're usually respectful.

I won't even see my favorite bands these days unless I'm drunk. Alcohol just numbs my thoughts. A few years ago, this all used to be different. I used to have a strong social life, a lot of friends, but now, I stay hidden most of the time.

Going out in public seems to be one of those nessisary evils, I don't really care for it either.

A necessary evil for me are the train stations. They are pit of overwhelming stupidity what is full of idiots with blatant disregard for the social conventions, which MIND YOU, I had to learn (it is not obvious to me when to hold doors open for people, have non-threatening facial expressions, etc.).

I mean, there are so many tourists yakking on their cell phones in the Starbucks line, people that insist on standing on the left side of the escalator (another social taboo), and confused mothers with their double strollers trying to navigate the turn-styles. The noise is overwhelming, the air smells sick with chemically-altered cinnamon buns and the lights are fluorescent. With all of that going on, how can one even like leaving their apartment?