Here we go again...

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I can feel it happening again, my depression is coming back. For me it comes and goes, ill have a few days where i can barely force myself to keep going, then ill have a good few weeks or months then im back down.

I dont know what to do at this point. I cant stop thinking about my ex girlfriend, we broke up a month ago yesterday. She is still the center of my attention. In July i started a job in an area Ive never dealt with before... auto parts. I have never felt more ret*d (and i dont use that word lightly either). People come in with a worn out part and want a replacement, when i ask what it is they look at me like im stupid. When they call it by a different name than our catalog has it by and it doesnt show up, they ask me to "go get someone who isnt a complete moron" or say "you seriously dont know what that is?" I have been at that job for about a month and a half and i still feel like im getting in the way.

I had a "confrontation" with my boss the other day. I received a call looking for parts and what specifically those parts do and go to. The manager refused to take the call and wanted me to handle it. I had to put the caller on hold a few times to ask questions. After the call the manager told me that people are going to get upset quickly if i have to keep putting them on hold. I asked him what he wxpected me to do if i didnt have the answer and nobody was willing to take the call. He said to me "if you cant take a little bit of criticism then we need to go have a talk".

I made it clear when I interviewed for the job that my automotive knowledge was very limited, i had been in convenience store management for quite some time. They hired me knowing that, so they obviously expect me to be asking questions. My boss looked at me like i had seven heads when i asked him what an exhaust flange is.

Enough about work... the rest of my daily life isnt doing me any favors either. Im going to be 26 soon, i still live with my mother, classic "failure to launch" type thing. I make decent money but i suck at saving. My car is nine years old and has 218,000 miles on it.

The relationship i was recently in was the only one ive ever had, i still have no clue how to start a relationship, it was a coworker who set us up.

Im at the point where i have no clue what to do next. Work takes all the energy i have and still demands more. Winter is coming, which means the down days will only get worse from here.

I think the only reason im still here is that i dont have the balls to do anything about it. Either that or its my fear of failure, which makes no sense since i fail daily.

You'll become familiar enough with the names of the car parts, you may absorb better if you start replacing each of those parts on your own car. Have you taken any Auto Tech classes at college? After a semester you'll know each part and its function more intimately. You'll be able to work on your own car to keep it running and save yourself lots of money. In the meantime you can read repair manuals and spend some time at the junkyards to get a physical feel for it

I will have a new respect for the guy behind the parts counter; it really does take arrogant NT alphas to make parts stores what they are but now I can recognize someone else on the spectrum that's just another fellow squirrel trying to get a nut. But we do need more of us there that can give every cross application without having to type in year and model every time