feeling Emotionally dead

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I think my year of repressing my negitive emotions have finaly come around to bite me in the ass, I dont feel much of any thing any more, when do feel things the feeling goes away in one or two seconds. this is not much better then soul crushing depression. vary little can get what emotitions are there out. week long family cruase, first vacation in at least 5 years, i fell nothing. get my drivers lisanse what ever. start senoir year so what. i just dont care, the onky reason i keep going with scholl work is the hope of things being better latter on in life. I does not help at all that my two best freinds graduated and moved away, and that my family are typical NT jerks.

my freinds moved on, I dont like my family at all my tharipist that is a Autism expert she is still NT and does not understand.

I Have been feeling like this for years but and it as slowly getten worst as time goes by.

pleace can i have help with this!

I hit a similar place when I was in my mid/late teens.
The one thing that brought me out of my shell was a girl...who then ran like a bat outa hell when she realized it had the side effect of making me fall for her...
Yah I'm like a chick magnet...except I've got the wrong end pointed at them and its repelling them.

So for what its worth uh find something that makes you want to feel I guess.
A girl, or a guy, an activity, or a place.
Its prolly guna hurt though. So hopefully your luck is better then mine.
I think I may be sliding back into it the last few years...so yah take what you will.

maybe your life has to be different than the lives of people around you. if nothing makes you feel anything, not even obsessions or stuff that usually should help people with aspergers, something must be wrong? strange that your therapist can't help you with this. I would think that obsessions/releaving stress and organizing your life better would be the key. If it is depression, you need to get out of it, and SSRI and medication may help. Other than that I don't know.

Sweet Pea hugs

I feel emotionally dead apart from tonnes of self-directed anger, most of the time. I currently exploring with my therapist why that is. I think it's my environment, rather than autism. I hope you find answers. I don't know what to do to reconnect with emotions, though.

i think i found an activity for me but i cant start it for 6 mouths. bee keeping. if you read my erlery post it would make more sents

Can't offer much in the way of compassion or support, because I feel the same way (Literally soulless. No empathy, no happiness definitely, can't concentrate worth a damn, just irritable a lot of the time and tired, too), but I know how you feel. It's been my existence for quite a while and it certainly sucks. Maybe we'll find something in the way of medication that makes us feel less like zombies, eh? And about dating: I can only speak for myself and not for you grunt, but being in the spot I am, not even knowing WHAT I am entirely (I think I do have some ASPD and Schizoid traits), I think it'd be more trouble than it was worth for both me and any female I developed an interest in to try dating with me in this mindset, even though I sometimes do get lonely and think having a partner would be beneficial.

I have felt this way, but I try not to view it as completely negative. Many of my meltdowns would be the direct result of an emotion. The emotion -- whether love or anger or fear or happiness -- would take over and I would do the dumbest things on the planet without thinking. Those situations were incredibly self destructive, so emotions ain't the end-all-be-all for me. That's probably why I developed an interest in Stoic philosophy and Buddhism.

Neither philosophy is against having emotions. But there are cognitive aspects to both. It's about equanimity and finding balance and letting yourself be. The mind is the master of the emotions. Then you can see situations more clearly and let your emotions come more naturally rather than "I'm on vacation so I'm supposed to be happy." That's judgmental and you will feel worse if you are not happy at that moment.

Even recently, I have focused on how much boredom is a source of anxiety and unhappiness. But that negative emotion stems from "I should be doing something and it should bring a positive outcome." But the question is: what's wrong with relaxing and doing nothing? Even doing something and having some expectation it's gonna be great instead of just living in the moment. Then I'm better prepared for when reality happens. Why repress negative emotions anyway? Acknowledge them and move on. It's a part of nature.

I like the beekeeping idea. We can learn a lot from nature. Sometimes it is environment and the dominant cultural ideology we live in, and nature does not play by those rules. Studying nature and getting out in the natural world away from others who annoy you sounds like a good obsession to have right now.

i am also feeling the same. I barely laugh or smile nowadays
i dont have social life and barely go to any office parties or get togethers
if i go out on vacation i just laze around in my room
or do some sight seeing
one thing which gives me a high is falling in love
but i am not allowed to do that (i am married)
and when i fall in love its obsessive love(erotomania) nothing to do with sex
it comes with repercussion and i am trying hard to overcome this illness.