I'm disgusted that I was born

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I came up in this world innocent and sinless, but as the time passed I realised in what kind of hellhole I was thrown. I hate the premise that I was born, I hate that there's no other way to live, but be used by someone. I want to rebel, but I won't to be able to do anything alone. Hope is the only reason that I live for, but the truth constrains me.

I hear you. But you can be alone and rebel in yourself, with what you do with yourself, just in the aspie/autist way. That's why many prefer being at home, because you can still be alone with your brain, your thoughts and your mind no matter what.

(Thread moved from Autism discussion to The Haven)

I've been writing a lot of short stories lately. You might say I've embraced my aspie side, that "ultra-focusing on special interest" side. I think there's a writer in all of us. Write about your experience. It's been kind of a release for me.

There's always a bit of us lost whenever we learn something. We are not as pure as we were when little. I suppose that is the tradeoff for knowing things. People say ignorance is bliss and they're right. Still, if I had to choose between the two I'd always go with knowing. I will enjoy suffering in my pursuit of knowledge.

Look at it this way: In nature every thing that exists serves a purpose. Humans are not spared from this great rule (whether we like it or not; our big brains and heavy hearts cannot save us). To go against it is to go against nature. Now I'm not telling you to give up. We must all simply accept what we have been thrown into and make something out of it.

Like my uncle always says. There's two kinds of people in this world: Those that complain and do nothing, and those that complain and do something.

Which one will you be?