I cannot stand this any longer.

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I am doing my AS Levels at the moment and I cannot take this any longer. I work all day at school, even all lunch time. And then I come back home and I eat dinner, play piano, and work until 11pm. I have just had a crying fit. My brain no longer works. I have no time to sleep. My brain's function is dropping because of stress and lack of sleep.
WHAT DO I DO....????! !!
I cannot work less because that is simply not an option at the moment.

LATER EDIT (5 mins later): You know what, I feel elated now. I feel high. I think I am somewhat manic-depressive. One moment I'm crying my eyes out and the next moment I am making all these plans and dreaming about things, in some sort of high state.

What are AS levels?

AS levels are a sixth-form qualification in England.
They're like half A-levels.

Sorry to confuse you. AS Levels are the exams taken at the end of the second last year of secondary school (should you choose to stay on and do them - GCSEs are compulsory but AS Levels are not). They also include coursework.

COURSEWORK............ FGJAGLKWOAITJ956&*%$*%&£$*£*tu AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH.

*DIes*

I thought you were normally a happy person!

I can tell you that I must get a job because Washington State does not give you free money from them. I know it takes time!

I hope things improve with you soon!

I think manic depression and Bi-polar are actually over DX,especially with individuals with AS.The manic period you just described could be a situational occurrence...ie....lack of sleep,stress,crying....all effect the chemicals in your brain that could cause a "manic feeling"(endorphine release),the same thing can be achieved with exercise and not eating properly.I think having AS traits can make a person more vulnerable to these chemical changes in the brain(I am just making that connection,because many people with AS say they are hypersensitive to ingesting external chemicals,same would apply to our own brain chemicals and hormones.IMHO)

I'm sorry your experiencing this.Can you get any help from family to ease some of your stress?I think sleep is really important right now as well as getting proper food.Is is possible for you to change your schedule(I know change sucks)to do less?I know it is tempting to be perfect but you may need to write yourself a "pass" for now and allow yourself to be less then perfect in some area.Good luck.

I'm glad these matters are understood!

Sorry to hear you're feeling exhausted.

Perhaps, like many people with AS, you can be a perfectionist sometimes? Maybe you are trying too hard? Qualifications are a numbers game, to a certain extent. If you know that you're an A grade student in one particular subject, divert some of your energies elsewhere. Similarly if you know there's a particular subject which you're going to fail whatever you do, cut your losses and concentrate on something else. The most important topics are the borderline C/D grades where your hard work could make an important difference.

Also, do you tend to cycle through energy and burnout / happiness and depression? It could be that your current issues are being exacerbated by the natural cycles of your own body. I know I have one or two depressed days every month, and if I cry it all out I feel refreshed afterwards. The onset of winter probably isn't helping with this.

Try to focus your time and energy as best you can, and avoid unnecessary tangents. Get out in the sunshine and the fresh air for a short while every day, though, as this will help your mood and your concentration. If you are a hippy, co-ordinate your longest working days to coincide with the full moon. And if all else fails, when you feel overloaded, listen to Portishead or Soundgarden or Leonard Cohen or whoever makes you sad, and get it all out of your system. And keep talking to us, 'cos we're listening!

Agh, I typed a long reply to this and it was lost.

How many A-levels are you taking? I started with five, but had to dro one due to burnout. One of the remaining subjects was only offered at AS, so this year I'm down to three A2s. I still find it too much some days, but having the spare time due to the minimal number of courses helps me recuperate. Even then I occasionally have to take a day off and just sleep a lot, which works out ok as long as long as I only do it occasionally.

Also, make sure you take at least some lunch breaks. Working too hard will cause you to get too stressed and ultimately will make it harder to focus. If there's a park near your school, at least one day a week take a walk in it. Bring a sandwich and eat it sitting on a bench / near a lake / up a hill ... you get the idea. I discovered that being outside can have a huge impact on my mood, and I end up a lot more calm and cheered up.

Sorry, double post. (My internet connection's acting up.)

Bipolar disorder is not the kind of thing that changes from moment to moment. It takes at least a few days to weeks to months for the brain chemistry to swing in from one direction to the other.

Thank you for all the excellent advice. I came home today and just poured into my maths books. No revision. Just pure, pure maths, pure enjoyment. I'm not even going to school tomorrow because I'm going to a conference.

I will take heed of all your advice, however it is 23:13 now and I must go to bed.

But, really, THANKS!! !

You're welcome, but math? Why are you bringing up math now?

Because I associate maths with happiness.

I understand you!

I learn things by associating formulas to them. All of my physics homeworks are pages and pages of mathematical theory. I was even once told off for putting a table in my English Lit homework (thankfully I no longer do English literature at school)!