(Rant) how can I stop this ? any advice ?

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I'm 17 and was diagnosed with Asperger's only a few months ago. I always knew there was something a bit off with me compared to my siblings and other people but my main concern is my breakdowns. I just want them to stop. I feel so childish when they happen and I try to avoid people when I feel like I'm getting bad but that's not easy. The friends I have don't know how bad I can get because I only see them in school and I'm usually fine in school. At home the smallest things set me off and I'm so tired of being the girl who freaks out over every thing.
I've always had anger issues but I make conscious efforts not to lash out at people. Lately that hasn't been so easy but I've hid in my room instead and just destroyed everything in sight. After I cooled down,'cos I always do, I clean it up and no one notices. This is becoming more frequent and I hate it. I don't like loosing control of myself like that and I feel so guilty about it.
The same for mood swings, by now everyone in my life knows I can change personality in a heart beat but I want it to stop. I go to my school counsellor but I haven't improved at all.
I'm at my wits end and I just needed to rant online because I feel like s**t. I know i'l be grand in a few days or even hours but for now this post has helped me.

have you considered medication

It'll take time. Try to understand your sensory, and other, triggers. Once you know what can set off a meltdown, you will be able to to take steps to prevent or deal with it better. One of the nicest things about my realization of aspieness was knowing I didn't just randomly go off (or as I used to think of myself - be an irrational b***h). I realized that I could become overloaded by certain environments or triggers. Now, I travel with earplugs, communicate my desire for my mother to slow her rate of speech (that was always a weird one, but she does not pause and it sets me off), and I learn to take a break from whatever environment is starting to build a tension in me. I'll retreat to a bathroom or other quiet and private area (I used to do this instinctively even before I knew I was on the spectrum). Other strategies are to pay attention to my compulsion to stim. If I'm aware that I'm doing it, or wanting to, that usually means something is on my mind that is bothering me (that's if I'm in public. In private I stim just because I like to).

Just make sure you are learning about the syndrome and how it manifests in you. Once you learn about your triggers and overloads, you'll be able to come up with, and rely on, strategies that will help avoid or lessen the meltdowns. Hope this helps.