Thank you for replying, it helps me feel a little less alone. Living alone with my cat has been difficult. I'm glad I have my cat, but I worry what to do with him if I ever get hospitalized. I see my case worker in a little over a week, my psychiatrist in just under a month. I just have to keep going, one foot in front of the other I suppose. I miss my fiancee, ex-fiancee... but he wasn't supportive and it hurt me deeply, and still I miss him. He was also my only friend. I feel lost and unsure about the future.