16 Mar 2013, 7:15 pm
I have a problem, that seems like a rather stupid thing to complain about, but here it is..
Basically, I'm too good at school for my own good (I'm not trying to brag - this is a curse as much as it's a blessing)
I have a few degrees I could pursue;
Mathematics (Applied, Pure, Actuarial ($) ??)
Physics
Philosophy
Psychology
I am just as interested in one as much as the others, and I'm constantly jumping from one to other like an ADD monkey.
Some bring more money, obviously, some have better employment opportunities... some feel like they would be more satisfying in terms of how much I would feel that I actually learned.
There's also another issue arising lately. I have been studying metaphysics in my down-time (not in school this semester due to various problems) ... and I essentially feel like I'm losing my mind and grip on reality.
The same issue arises with the study of Physics, the whole thing isn't exactly the most concrete picture of reality anymore.
I have also been studying religions, Hinduism specifically as of late, and that is only raising more questions.
Essentially I'm running into so many questions, and not getting any answers... I feel like I'm losing my mind yet I enjoy it, it's certainly not boring or monotonous.
Mathematics is the only thing that gives me certainty, it keeps me sane. I don't think I would be able to have a grip on reality without it.
I don't know if anyone can relate to this... but it's actually scaring me quite a lot. Every day, the more I learn and the more I think about these things, I lose slightly more and more of "reality".
"Question everything" has been brought to a point where nothing exists anymore.
I wasn't even sure where this post (more like rant) would go, I initially started writing to ask what I should do about school, but it's clearly more complicated than that.
I hope someone understands this, and I'm not just batshit crazy 
16 Mar 2013, 7:43 pm
16 Mar 2013, 7:53 pm
My favorite therapist advised me to pick one and drive towards it. It may not be perfect. I may get bored. But with discipline, I could make my way in just about anything. That's the thing, discipline is key. Stick to whichever one has the most job options and that you enjoy, and if you don't like it, change up later.
As for religions... basically no religion can truly answer questions about the universe. I find that the mental training of Buddhism can help my ADHDness, and it's an excellent lifestyle philosophy, but I can't take a lot of the metaphysical aspects seriously. My approach to the questions with no answers is that there are things I know to be true. Things that I can see, touch, and feel are assumed real. You can argue that with some metaphysical rubbish... but that keeps me grounded. Once that foundation's in place, build from there. Just don't live your life around chakras and gods and big bang theory or the accelerating universe. Use those questions as mental exercise, but maintain that grounding in reality and you're good as gold.
Thank you for the reply, first of all...
That's the problem, the points in metaphysics aren't rubbish.. I can't refute them on a lot of things, even Physics is starting to agree with it all.
I agree with the Buddhism thing, it has (along with Daoism) helped me stay grounded somewhat. But grounded to what? Essentially nothing. I find no comfort in "physical" reality, it is temporary and comes and goes.
I think I know what I need to do, it involves all four of the disciplines I've mentioned.. but it will either give me answers or drive me to the edge of my sanity which I feel I'm already approaching... question is; do I run back to the center and live as "the others" do or do I take a leap of faith off the side?
I think of sayings like "There's a time in a man's life where he needs to follow the path that calls him" or "One day you'll need to take a leap of faith" ... but I have already been driven to the brink and do not want to become psychotic again
16 Mar 2013, 8:06 pm
17 Mar 2013, 10:50 am
17 Mar 2013, 11:12 am
Basically, I'm too good at school for my own good (I'm not trying to brag - this is a curse as much as it's a blessing)
I have a few degrees I could pursue;
Mathematics (Applied, Pure, Actuarial ($) ??)
Physics
Philosophy
Psychology
I am just as interested in one as much as the others, and I'm constantly jumping from one to other like an ADD monkey.
Some bring more money, obviously, some have better employment opportunities... some feel like they would be more satisfying in terms of how much I would feel that I actually learned.
Considering that the autistic spectrum may prove a challenge in the workplace, it might be a good idea to focus on fields that offer good employment prospects.
There aren't a lot of positions for pure mathematicians in society, so it would probably be best only to focus on this if you are a complete ace.
Last time I checked, psychology also suffers from somewhat high unemployment rates. And if you have issues with social interaction, working as a clinical psychologist can also be difficult to cope with.
Philosophy is an awesome field if you want to be... unemployed.
Choosing a field which combines a high mathematical component with specific workplace skills (like actuarial science, finance, engineering, statistics, physics) would probably be the best bet if you place high emphasis on your mathematical skills. Several of these are also some of the best-paying jobs currently available.
This is based on information from the US labor market (US department of Labor), but I'm guessing that Canada isn't all that different in this regard.
Nah it's the same here, Applied Mathematics (physics,bio,chem)/Computer Science/Enineering etc.. are the best paying and in demand jobs.
The problem is that when I think I know what I want to do, it changes in a few days
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