Will society ruthlessly crush me?

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I've realized recently that everyone doesn't really have a sense of 'a break' - educational institutions happen to close in the summer and for a few weeks in the year, but what if people need longer breaks?

I've been in college for two years now and this great tiredness first descended upon me 3/4 of the way through the first year... at which point it would have been useless to quit, so I kept riding a bike through a hellish town center for about 2.5 miles each way, which utterly, utterly broke me both physically and mentally. Resting for three months in the summer was way more enjoyable than the destructive college routine I had on a weekly basis, but in the grand scheme of things I needed much more rest. I mean, I went to college three times a week, which left four days of 'rest'... but it really isn't so simply equivalent.

After I began this year, after a few months, I was so tired I tried to see whether I could postpone it until next year, but on medical grounds, apparently, a few months is all people can have (so those who happen to get hit by a car or something are out of luck, it appears, in this mercilessly ruthless culture) - but that's if the college course isn't impossible to still finish off within the same year, as funding just can't be postponed, the tutor said.

So... now I've somehow managed to finish off a few assignments despite this, and I'm likely to complete the course as it's only a couple of months more... but there is no way in hell that I could go straight to university (as is the logical progression due to this course) after just another summer break, as it's not a question of whether, but when and how severe my breakdown would be if I attempted to do another three years of this sort of stuff, possibly even harder.

And as such, I intend to take at least a year's break after finishing this... but people are already showing signs that society will just not tolerate any weakling taking a break to possibly restore their sanity in this f****d up and utterly ret*d rat race, for which I hold very little interest (see my threads in the work forum - money is just not a motivator for me). Now I tend to exaggerate things in my mind and build a sort of extended fantasy to fuel my emotions in certain directions, but I can almost imagine people with guns forcing their way into my abode (since I can't possibly remain in isolation).

I'm sick of society as some people are sick of maggots - they're never usually force-fed those maggots, though.

I took a year break, and from what I have heard, UK is quite the welfare state..

Anyway, College is probably not for you if you're getting so stressed out about going only 3 days a week..
I take a 60% course load (3 out of 5) three terms per year (aka all year) instead of 5 courses for two terms. This helps a lot, but even that sounds like it would be too much for you, so I don't know what to tell you... not everyone is cut out for post-secondary.

Can you take online classes?

Not sure how (and, at least, college certainly wouldn't provide such an option...)

Well, you won't be able to if you're studying something hands-on because you'd have to be in class in person. But for a liberal arts type curriculum, you might consider switching to a college that provides online courses if physically going to the school is exhausting you.