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idlewild
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04 Apr 2013, 10:56 pm

Nothing dramatic. Just sad. Tired of acting normal and being judged for not being social enough. Tired of being criticized and patronized and preached at for not being open enough or emotional enough. Tired of people not believing me when I state my limitations or plan for accommodations so I can participate. Tired of people getting pissed at me because I don't want to be a social butterfly and center of attention. Tired of people being pissed because they think I owe them my time and emotions. Tired of being too poor and dependent on other people to be able to get to where I can get some help. Tired of people getting angry at me for not expressing my emotions and then getting angry at me when I do. Tired of feeling entirely alone. Tired of feeling like I owe the world something just because I'm different.

Today the world feels like an unreasonable place to me. How about you?


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05 Apr 2013, 5:35 am

I think it's ok to feel sad and admit it. I'm sorry you're not in a situation where you can just tell people you can't manage it today and have them deal with it. You shouldn't have to bottle it up all the time.



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06 Apr 2013, 7:07 pm

I feel the same way .Not depressed but just sad and weary at the moment.When I get like this I tend to think back on the friends I've lost because I'm not social enough and they got sick of waiting for me to become more like them I guess. The friends I do have left still don't fully understand why I find socializing so difficult and why I am the way I am.

I understand how you feel and it's a unusual comfort to know I'm not the only one.



idlewild
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06 Apr 2013, 7:09 pm

That's why I posted. I hoped it would help others.

I'm sitting alone in my room right now avoiding a social gathering. i guess they all think I'm stuck up, but I just can't handle it.


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06 Apr 2013, 7:14 pm

Have a hug and a :flower:

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Brisingr
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06 Apr 2013, 7:19 pm

idlewild wrote:
I'm sitting alone in my room right now avoiding a social gathering. i guess they all think I'm stuck up, but I just can't handle it.


I do that all the time when my noisy relatives come over!. They're so used to it they get a surprise when they do see me :P

Also when I'm around friends and strangers,if I find the conversation boring or uncomfortable I just walk away . People who know me are used to it.



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06 Apr 2013, 7:36 pm

The world often feels like an unreasonable place to me. I can understand and relate to having sad feelings about that.


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09 Apr 2013, 4:02 pm

I dont feel sad for being sad, just for the people who are.