Confusion all over again!!

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Last year when I finished a Special interest in my own I made myself really upset and became incredibly anxious around all my special interests. The last one I had was constantly up and down, up and down but I loved the highs.
This time I sort of feel my anxiety is stopping me from acting the same. I still love the interest I acquired a few days ago but sometimes, out of the blue I just feel down. I generally don't feel the interest has nearly as much hold over me as it normally does. If it is my anxiety I don't know how to let it go. At the same time sometimes I feel like I'm forcing myself to do things to do with my new interest and I'm worried I did shove it onto myself! I have to make myself do things sometimes. I don't know if its a similar feeling to the often used romance plot when the boy or girl can't let go because they've been hurt in the past. I honestly don't know what's going on. I think the interest formed yesterday morning but I'm not sure whether I'm making myself take the interest on because I didn't have one or if its mental. I just want to know whats going on!!

This analogy might not be completely accurate, but I think this is a bit like "taste testing" while seeking a regular and satisfying "diet" for sustenance. I see something that catches my curiosity or interest, then discover (or at least believe) it has potential for me...but then maybe something else comes along looking a bit better and distracts me or I discover something related to the current interest that slows or even blocks me from pursuing it further.

Keep your curiosity going strong, but always try to further develop and maintain ever-more-clear objectivity in relation to expectations so your overall knowledge and experience (including wisdom) can actually grow.

develop an interest in cooking.

no matter what, there's always something new to learn. and its a great life skill.

just a suggestion