Have to pull myself out of this funk

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I'm simply overwhelmed. You know I was taking the Welbutrin and everything was going great and then I started forgetting it and forgetting I had forgotten so my blood levels got low. When I noticed it last week I started back taking it twice a day with a new way of remembering to take it. It's been long enough but I still feel so damn depressed and I'm completely overwhelmed by any stress at all.

Right now, every little thing feels like it's going to push me over the edge into just staying in bed all day and giving up. The latest is that my dryer went out again. We had it fixed in Feb and now it's doing the same thing. Not drying or heating up. I can't afford to get it fixed again, hell I can't afford to pay the freaking power bill as it is. I'm stressing about money, I'm stressing about being behind in my housework, I'm stressing about the way DH is being a douche at me. I'm just stressing about everything.

I took my daughter to see the probation officer about the shoplifting thing today. I had also talked to the drugstore manager and the PO said that they will just put it aside and it will go away as long as she doesn't do it again. She won't. That should be a load off my mind but it's not. I can't even feel that some stress has been relieved, I still feel like carrying the weight of the world.

I tell myself to look at situations others are in. I still have my kids, DH is still around, I have a place to live, I am not dying of some horrible disease, etc. THOSE are the things that would be so terrible, not a late power bill, a malfunctioning dryer and a nonattentive husband. I know this but I can't make myself feel it. It is all I can do today to not just go and get back in bed and say forget it all. Just sleep. I know it will get better and I know my thoughts and feelings and emotions are all skewed up right now because of an imbalance of brain chemicals and that it will get much better really soon, but it's so hard to believe that and feel anything except just complete apathy.

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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
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Don't feel bad about feeling bad. I've been coming off SSRIs and I just let it ride when it hits me.

Hi OOM, Here is what occasionally works for me (i get into a state of mind like you've described on a random but fairly frequent basis)
A glass of ice water, for hydration, then a small pot of strong caffeinated coffee with a piece of fruit, then change into workout clothes and do a solid hour, better closer to two hours of medium intense aerobic exercise - in my case my bike on a stand called a Cycle-Ops, which provides resistance when you pedal. Then shower; and a lot of the stress goes away for awhile.
It's not a permanent solution, but gives me my brain back for several hours.