aspie defense mechanisms

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Is it just me? Physical danger does not seem to impress itself on me but sometimes human beings can be so brutal and inconsiderate with words that it just knocks me out of commission for weeks at a time. Even here in AspieLand people sometimes say things taht just knock the wind out of me on an emotional level.

I am so fragile and sensitive emotionally that I dont even know how I have survived as long as I have.

Yesterday I had my as* handed to me by a past acquaintance. It was just an email, but tits contents rocked me to the core. Sigh, I wish I was like some people that can just brush those things off.

Yeah I seem to have inherited a super sensitive gene. I can do physical labor above and beyond what most people can handle, but I often retreat from most or sometimes all people when I'm mistreated by someone. Or else I ruminate and obsess over it so much that I drive away everyone else.

Inside me somewhere is an unending exquisitely sad blue sea.

I've been shutdown since age 13. Nothing much phases me anymore. Though I still enjoy my interests.