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There are some botched creations out there, like myself, in which it really is for the best to be put down or something to that effect.
I rarely post new threads mostly because I can never think of a title, with this being no different. Anyway, I can imagine that, if I of all people was to turn up on the top of a tall building, a lot of people down on the ground (including I guess the majority of this community too) would be absolutely rooting for me to follow through with it, maybe so they can end the chapter of their lives in which they had the displeasure of ever encountering me, I guess? I don't know, I can't access the minds of other people.
Sadly, the thought of devastation within my family currently prevents me from doing this or something similar, however time presses on and I find myself feeling ever more demotivated, demoralised, miserable, unable, damaged and unsolvable, and pretty soon I'll disregard any other factors I'm sure.
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So...what's up?
Well, things that occurred in the past, whilst they don't haunt me anymore and haven't for some time, are a reminder of how things should have ended years ago before it got to this stage where I find myself growing up in a world where I'm unwanted, unneeded and most certainly considered unfathomable.
Yes, progress has been made in the past few years, I was a nervous wreck. Though not enough has been made, and I feel I'm reaching (or have already passed) the peak of my social and mental abilities, and still find myself light years behind other people in some areas with decline on the way.
My problems are fairly complex, and I doubt anyone really wants to hear it here. Even if that was the case, it does extend well beyond this post, and is difficult to explain at the best of times. If anyone wants to reply, I will read, but may not have the ability to put up a good effort in response.
Anyway, that's how I feel. I try.

TenPenPiece.
I was trying to post a smiley who was climbing up a wall. Didn't work. As usual, the stuff I want to do doesn't work, no one gives a s___, or worse still, it gets thrown back in my general direction. Anyway, what I wanted to say was that underneath everything, you're a bright and good person, with a formidable creativity. Please hang in there, and here, because you'd be surprised who needs the inspiration you put out into the world.
p.s. There is a cone in my garage, among the stacks of boxes and crate. Wat should I do with it when I move? Should I surreptitiously put it with other cones, or should I bring it with to my new house?

    Everybody should have a good cone, my life is that much sadder because I have none. Keep your cone, that's my advice.

    TenPencePiece everything has value, we mammals live on plant poop -oxygen.
    In my opinion it's impossible that you're more valuable dead.

    On the third hand, while homeless, I had calculated my value in economically stabilizing the homeless shelter (and it's paid employees) at $4.25 annually.
    About that time we drove past a cemetery.
    I calculated that if a person stayed buried there for 200 years they were still stabilizing the economy by over $30 annually!

    A homeless man is seven times more valuable to the world economy dead than alive! That brightened my day in a strange sort of way.


LOL omg that's good, I've got to post that on our website. =)

Last edited by 1401b on 01 Jun 2013, 10:13 pm, edited 1 time in total.

A Stabilized Aspie 'Phoenix' is worth 564,705.88 times a homeless one -in pure economic terms.


Stay alive.