Why me? What did I do to deserve this?

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There are thousands of "normal" people out there. None of them did anything to earn the right to e normal; they were just lucky enough to born that way.
Then why, of all people, did I have to be born with this disease which has cheated me of ever being to have a normal life from the very start? Because of an accident of birth, which I was given no choice in, I will never be able to make friends, have a girlfriend, or ever get married and have a family like everyone else I know has by my age. Why me? Did I somehow do something to deserve to be punished like this before I was even conceived? What did I ever do to have this disease inflicted upon me?

Having AS doesn't mean you can never have any of those things. I have AS and have been married (for the second time, mind you) 26 years, have four kids and a grandchild, have friends, have dated a good bit when I was younger, and I've had a job whenever I've wanted or needed to work. There are quite a few of us here who have done so.

It's easy to just see the negative side when you are depressed. I'm very aware of what depression can do to your thinking, and sometimes you don't even realize that it's depression. When you get down and discouraged it's very easy to think that nothing will ever get better, but it does.

I know this somewhat cliche on this site, but AS isn't the same for women as it is for men. A woman can be shy and awkward and men will still approach her, but that doesn't work for men because we're expected to be more aggressive. Most of the members you mentioned having successful love lives are women.

An attractive Aspie woman will attract men . . . but a lonely attractive Aspie woman will attract the wrong kind of men and that can be a much worse hell than not being approached.

Being a young Aspie comes with high odds of also being naive. That's like a lone young lamb wandering near a wolf pack where all the wolves are dressed in sheep's clothing.

I've only had one long-term girlfriend, and the only reason she was with me was because she wanted someone easy to manipulate.

It may be tough for a female Aspie to identify a bad man, but at least she still has a chance of being approached by someone who's genuine. Us male Aspie don't even have that chance.

I speak from experience. Do you?

A naive lonely woman is a needy one. That's what repels the good men. One man summed it up straightforwardly to me when he said, "No one likes a needy person."

I do speak from experience. And like you, I've had someone take advantage of my AS and manipulate and use me. And when she was done using me she went around spread lies and saying that I abused her and cheated on her.
But look at all the other users on this site: overall, the majority of the men here have had no success in relationships, while the majority of women do.

I specifically meant the experience of being an Aspie woman.

The majority of Aspie women offline who I know (myself included) do not have success in relationships. I'm married, but to a NT who comes from a family filled with siblings who all are clueless in knowing how to be a companion.

Generally speaking, the Aspie men I've become acquainted with offline (mainly through an adult Asperger support group) are far more decent then NT men. I've heard their difficulties they have with girlfriend relationships. From what I can tell, they're attracted to women who are not the right match for them.

How does that statement even counterbalance anything? We're all worse off, and will always be worse off. You cant put off making a statement like that as well as say making one that could have future consequences. Either way, should you continue to follow this line of resentment the only one ending up bitter and lonely will be you.

Nobody does anything to deserve or not deserve the life they're born into - including you. We scrape by on what we can, take comfort where possible, and take pride in not kowtowing to circumstance.

Seriously don't ever use someone else's life or accomplishments as a measuring stick for the value of your own.